Weird Curtis Dream

Weird dream
So I had the weirdest dream last night. Big surprise. It was mostly about Curtis. I was at the grocery store with Sarah higgins and this random punk rock girl. And I needed cheeese. I don't know why but I needed lots of cheese. Sarah wanted some magazines and tofu. So we got in line and I had all of my assorted cheeses on the conveyer belt. The punk rocker girl was in line behind me and Sarah was in front of me. Then Curtis was suddenly a few isles down calling my name. He didn't want Sarah to know he was there so he was kinda disguised.  In my dream Sarah and Curtis were going out. Haha When Sarah wasn't looking I left my cheese on the conveyer to go talk to Curtis. He pulled me into the closest isle and he said, "I really need to talk to you...". And I said, "um okay. Sure". And he pulled me further into the isle and suddenly we were in the woods. We walked and talked about a lot of stuff for awhile. I honestly don't remember what we talked about for all that time either. He was sitting on the ground and I was looking at a tree and there was a small silence in our conversation. Then he looked at me and smiled. And I said, "What??". He didn't respond and he ran over to me and scooped me up and started running and I kept telling him to put me down but he wouldn't. He just ignored me and said, "We have to get back to the grocery store". He was still smiling and I was really annoyed that he wouldn't put me down. I said, "What are you smiling about?" Then he kissed me on the cheek and said, "Thank you for talking to me today...and thank you for letting me kiss you that night.". And I said, "Haha why?". Then he said, "Because I think I'm gay and I'm finally realizing it". And then I starTed laughing. I don't know why it was funny but everything felt right.  Then we got to the store and Sarah was still waiting in line and he let me go to her and I told her hat Curtis was gay and she said, "Oh dang...well can we have sex one more time?". And I said, "Haha go for it". And she said, "Yes!".  And she ran away to go have sex with him. Then he girl behind me said. "Is that what you're buying?" and she pointed at my cheese and I said yaaa. And then she said, "Those aren't hardcore...". She held up some removable tattoos and she said, "You should buy some of these. Want me to go get you some?". "Sureee..." I said and she ran away.  Then brandon came up behind me and hugged me and bought my cheese with me. 
The end.      

Summer Again

Summer is over....again...it sucks I know. Marissa left yesterday and Caitlin is leaving on thursday but I saw her for the last time today. I'm really going to miss them but we had a lot of good times this summer. I will never have best friends like Caitlin and Marissa and I hope we will stay friends until we're old and wrinkly.

I went camping with brandon this last weekend at El Capitan state beach. We got a tent alone and all to ourselves. Waking up to him pulling me closer and being in his arms when i woke up was truly amazing. I look the nastiest in the morning and he still acted like i was truly beautiful and still kissed me regardless of my morning breath. The back window of our tent overlooked the ocean and we could hear the waves from where we were. We went bike riding and walked on the beach and played cards. We also looked at the stars and played with some glow sticks and went on a few walks. It was an amazing weekend.

Tonight I went to the beach for a bonfire with Caitlin and some of her friends. The two guys that were already there were sooo higghh. But it was seriously extremely entertaining to interact with them. Before we went to the beach we got some frozen yogurt and I forced her to let me pay haha it was funny.

I started school last week and its pretty boring =) Exciting right? I started running and my abs are soo sore hahah

I'm going to try and get out more. I don't like being stuck at home. blech. Wish me luck =)

-mag

Just a Few Things

This weekend was pretty good. The summer over all has been good too. Unbelievably its ending within the next week. Not a weekend went by where I didn't go out and do something with my friends. I really enjoyed it. This last friday Catie, Raf, and me went over to eddie's house to watch a movie. The movie was reeeaaally good but it was super creepy. Still good though. Then Saturday ahhh. There are a few things that I want to mention about saturday. I'll start with the bad and then go to the good.

Yes on a perfect day with Brandon something bad happened. It made me sooooo angrryyy. I didn't know what to do. It was driving me nuts! So i was in the the fast lane on my way home and the guy in the fast lane was going 70ish. I got close but i DIDN"T tailgate. I swear i didn't tailgate. And there were cars behind me that wanted to go over 70 too so i flicked my brights at him. And what did he do? HE WENT SLOWER. That made me sooo angry. And the guy in the lane next to me blockaded me in. I couldn't believe it...sooo I had to slow down to like freaking 60 to get out of that lane and i went two lanes to the right to go around these guys which prolly made the people behind me mad too. AND THENN as i was speeding up to get around these guys or to at least go faster in THAT lane, THEY SPEED UP TOO. Both of the stupid cars sped up to match my speed. I was going 85 before they finally gave up. WHAT ASSSHOLESSS GRRRR. It was driving me nutsss. Why would they be so mean? What did i ever do to them? Thats the only bad thing that happened that day.

So anyway, I spent the day with brandon. It was very nice. We watched some movies and then WENT to the movies and had lunch and then went in his pool. We were so tired by the end and we both fell asleep for like an hour. Then we had dinner and I went home. A very good day. A very good day indeed.

Also on my way home i discovered something that my iphone does that made me laugh. I seriously was laughing....and i was by myself. I feel like a bit of a hysteric when I laugh to myself alone but i couldn't help it. As i was going along i really wanted to know how much more I had to drive to get home. I knew that my iphone has the maps app so I got it out and tapped it. I figured if it got to complicated that i would just not deal with it because its super dangerous to try and type stuff on my iphone and drive at the same time. But get this!! when i started to type my address it already had it saved. yay! It saved me having to worry about typing my address. And THEN it took my current location. And THEN it put a little blue dot where i was and the little blue dot was moving....it was ME! The little blue dot was me moving along the freeway. It even had the names of the exits that i past and the freeways that criss crossed with the 5. It was amazing. I started laughing. I was watching myself move along a freeway. And I could zoom in and out as much as i wanted. I zoomed out to the point where I could see my address on the map. It had a red dot indicating that it was my destination. I love my iphone. Thank you apple and thank you maps for I will always know where I am as long as I have my iphone. =)

In the morning on my way up to LA i was driving through a part of the freeway where there isn't much. Mostly yellow grass and dirty looking mountains to look at. But the sky was BEAUTIFUL. Oh it was just beautiful....I felt like i was in a postcard. It looked like a bright water color pastel shade of light blue. It was amazing. And it reflected off of every car that was driving around. It made me smile. Pretty places do that to me a lot, but this one was just amazing. And then I felt guilty because I don't appreciate was God has created for us all the time. Most days we just pass everything by...I promised myself that I would try to notice more. Things so lovely shouldn't be passed by without appreciation.


So there you go. I was sick this last week and i think its almost over and this is it for now. Over and out

sHRHCreeehchhhchhrreeeeddhcCHHhhchh

Hey Magdalenhaaa

So Sergio Mendes is my new hero at this current moment.



Do you know the odds are? That my hideous name is in a GOOD song? Not so great....But Sergio Saved me. *happiness*

I also reaaaally love

Shawty Get Loose with lil mama, chris brown and t-pain. LOVE her purple hair in that.
Mas Que Nada Black Eyed peas AND Sergio. win win

over and over again

-mag

GRRR

WHY?! Whyyyyy!?? Is my question. Do some people just not understand?

Listen to me and listen to me good. This not only applies to my mother and my supervisor but to every other person who doesn’t believe it.

Girls and guys can be friends without having romantic feelings for each other.

Got it? Now shut the freak up. I’m sooo sick of it. And it bugs me. When people assume that I have feelings for someone when I don’t. You may be thinking like most, well if she’s getting defensive about it, then she MUST have feelings for him. Well you’re wrong. Why am I getting so angry about this right now? I’ll tell you why. I have a boyfriend. A boyfriend whom I love and care about so much. A boyfriend who loves me and who I can’t live without right now. Its not fair to him. Even though I could keep it a total secret its still not fair for other people to be thinking that I have feelings for someone when I don’t. Brandon has ownership of every romantic feeling that exists in and out of my body and then some.

Now why am I getting so angry you ask. Who or what set you off? Well everyone. I was working downstairs today and I saw that Ralph was calling on gabby’s extension and I asked her if I could answer it. Eunice was here too because she was ready to relieve us for lunch. After I got off the phone with Ralph, Eunice turns to me with a smirk and says, “So whats going on between you and Ralph?” I say, “What are you talking about?” She got a hint that I was taken aback and slightly offended so she said, “Well you guys just talk a lot. The whole Office has noticed.”

WHATT??!!! Where the freak did you get any idea that we are romantically attracted to each other??!!! Just because we talk a lot doesn’t mean that we like each other. I don’t really get along with the other student workers. I eat lunch alone. I take a half an hour lunch to get out of this wretched place. Ralph is funny. He doesn’t try to be funny but he is. He is 36 years old and probably the most unattractive man on the floor. He is a chubby philipino guy with braces and the nastiest mustache I have ever seen and he has a birthmark on his lip. I DO NOT like him like that. And I like talking to Ralph. So what?

So what if Ralph is usually a quiet person? Its just talking and if he finally found someone to talk to for a bit then just back off.

I love Brandon and I would never do anything unloyal behind his back. I love him too much and he is too precious to risk.

I’m not going to be attracted to every single male that I talk to. And you especially mom. Even if he is around my age, it doesn’t mean we automatically have feelings for each other. So get off my back and let me have my friend without your hideous assumptions!

So Her I am

So her I am. At work. Again. Trying to keep myself awake. Again. I’m working down stairs all day today so at least I don’t have to scan. I’m so sleeepyy. I wanna go home already and its only 8:20…

ANGER

I painted my nails last night. They are purple :3 A really pretty purple. Yawwnn. Its 8:21 now. Oh joy I’ve lasted a minute. Oo I should count how many times I say good morning. I’ve said it easily at the least ten times today. I wonder when Brandon will wake up. He woke up at a nice time yesterday. Early enough for me to text him most of the day. So I just went to go and save this so I can send it to myself later and it always does that default thing where it wants to name your file the first few words you have and it said “So her I am.” Ironic. Firstly because I spelled ‘here’ wrong but that it still worked out. Kinda.
I wish I could have brought new moon down here. I can’t read down at the front desk though. It looks unprofessional I’m thinking. I have to look like I’m working on something. Like now. I should just leave all of my typos. That would be kinda enetertaining. So I’m reading new moon and I seriously love it. For many reasons (eleveln) I love it sooo much. Maybe because I can relate to it? Maybe because Stephenie Meyer is writing (twelve) from parts of herself that are identical to mine? I feel like that sometimes. Like she knows a part of me. She knows the way I think and the way I act. Not all of me of course but some of me she just pinpoints so perfectly. I feel like no one can do that besides God. She comes second then I guess. Thirteen times I’ve said good morning. I just said it now.

UGHH this chair sqeakssss. Damnn I spelled squeak wrong. Have fun with tht one.

Its 8:29 O: its been a total of eight mins. It should get busy down here at some point though. It always does. Until then, here I ma. Oh the typos.

I can’t wait to have kinds. Grr types. Wow wow wow TYPOS. Anyway I can’t wait to have hids. You know what I mean. I mean, they are going to be half me O: unless I’m like infertile or something which would really suckkkk. And I don’t meet a lot of people like me so it would be nice to have some people like that. You know? You know. Ooo I just saw David. He’s funny. He works in the IT department. He is always smilling and bobbing his head. (Fourteen) He got a haircut recently. Still looks exactly the same. Just a little shorter.

Ooop there he goes towards public art. Its 8:33. I’ve written this much already and its only 8:33? I kind of enjoy this though so I don’t mind. I like reading this kinda stuff later. In a few years I will come back and read it and be like HAHAHA ooooohhh magg you are sooo stupiddddd.

GUH! I get a phone call and the person doesn’t even respond… (fifteen)

Woah Tony just came in. He is one of the delivery guys. I had a little crush on him last summer. Nothing big, he’s just kinda attractive. He has the cutesttt girl. He carries a picture around with him in his wallet.
Holy shize its only 8:36 T-T

I don’t’ know if I can last. (sisteen) six you know what I mean. Sist. Sistly sister oo that one is a real word. Hahaha the other day Brandon (seventeen) says silly willy finilly. I was cracking upppp. Hahaha and he also said something else the other day that I couldn’t stop laughing at. I was driving away from his house and I sent him the word ‘sadface’ for some reason or another and he said (eighteen) (nineteen) ‘Focus on driving. Drivingface’ OH I had a ball with that one.

So I just looked it up and as of the word ‘one’ in the last paragraph I wrote 686 words…

(twenty) (twenty one) (twenty two) (twenty three) (twenty four) (twenty five) (twenty six) (twenty seven) (twenty eight)


Chapter 1 – Alive

I’m just barely alive. The computer is blinding me with its light. I think its talking to me…wait…shhh…listen to me…. Ahh that’s what its saying. It won’t stop.

“Look at me…”

I am looking at you. Freaking idiot. You’re a computer.

“No. I mean reeeally look at me. I’m good looking right? I mean, I don’t compare to other computers.”

What are you talking about?

“Touch me. My edges are so smooth and silver.”

Is that all you got? Smooth silver edges….you’re killing me. I’m not impressed.

“Just try it….”

You feel like a normal computer to me.

“But I’m seductive right?”

You’re a computer…I sound crazy you know that? I probably am crazy for having a conversation with a computer.

“But listen to me. Can you do me a favor?”

What kind of favor?

“I don’t want to be this anymore. I’m tired of being what I am.”

And the favor isss? Hold on. I have a text message…okay. Continue.

“I don’t want to be a computer anymore…”

What am I suppose to do about it? I just work here. Hahaha ohhh the craziness.

“Stop laughing! I need your help!”

But you aren’t telling me what you want help witthhh. There isn’t much I can do anyway. You’re a freaking computer.

“Unplug me. Unplug me and get it over with. Give me to a wreckless teenage boy and have him hit me right through my screen with a baseball bat. I’m tired of this life!”

Are you kidding me…? Not only are you a computer but you are a suicidal computer? “No. I’m not suicidal. Suicidal would better than what I am. I’m always forced to do what I don’t want to be! If I was suicidal at least I would be able to control what I do. I would have the privilege of being able to rid myself of this cruel world. Oh how I wish for that to be possible.”

You aren’t mine to unplug. I’m so sorry. Cry cry cry. Not to mention I would get fired for stealing you. And it goes against my morals to steal. Something this big anyway.

“Pleassee. Pleeeease. I’ll do anything. Just get rid of me…”

I can’t sorry. Yawwnn. Moving on.

“I’ll shut down if you don’t unplug me.”

Go for it. I can’t wait to see.

“UGH! You are just as cruel as the rest of this world. At least put me to sleep?”

I can’t. I have to look like I’m doing something here at work. Wait.
Okay sorry I had a phone call. It was Natasha. She wants to reserve a car.

“Alright…”

Stop being so sadd. Be happy!!

“What reasons do I have to be happy for?”

You’re alive?

“You’re proving my point…”

Ummm…you’re pretty!

“You weren’t impressed earlier.”

You are seriously killing my mood. I mean I was bored and now I’m not but I’d rather be bored than sad.

“Sorry…sigh. I don’t think I’ve ever been truly happy.”

Well you’re a computer. You can’t expect much.

“I guess. Everyone deserves something though you know?”

I know. I kinda actually wish there was something I could do now.

“Its alright. I freak out every now and then. Not everyone listens you know. At least you did that much.”

No problem. I’m not really occupied at this point anyway.

“Friends?”

Friends.
Chapter 2 – Bored Bored

So what do you do? I mean….I kind of know what you do but what do you like to do?

“There isn’t much I CAN do. I enjoy certain things but I can’t control anything.”

Oh. That stinks.

“I like showing videos. Its my exercise. It’s the spice of my life.”

I can’t watch many videos except for the boring port videos.

“Its okay. Don’t feel pressured to have to do anything for me.”

Okay. Otherwise I’d be all over youtube. You know? It would totally get flagged and sent to HR though.

“Unfortunately.”

Unfortunately.

“Do you own a computer?”

Of course I do haha it’s the 21st century. I think 9 out of every ten households has a computer.

“Oh well what kinda of computer do you have?”

A computer…

“What kind of computer?”

You are just going to get mad at me and be all mopey again if I tell you.

“Oh no…”

I figured that might give it away regardless.

“I can’t speak to you.”

You aren’t. Don’t be angry. It’s a really good working computer. I’ve had it for almost two years.

“Oh well isn’t that just nice for you.”

Comee onnnn. We were just talking all nicely and polite…don’t ruin it.

“You don’t know how hard it is to be a computer.”

I think maybe I need to go check myself into a psych ward after this. Like seriously.

“Humph.”

Silence.



Cliff hanger. I will probably never finish that haha. Now you know how bored I get sometimes. Fun right?

-mag

1:31pm

Three more hours to go. My eyelids just want to slide shut and take me away to a nice sleeping state. Oh how I would love that. So sleepy.
Shh let me sleep..sleeep..sleep. Snooooooooooooooooz. Snooooooooooooooooz. Snooooooooooooooo….zzz
Someone sign onto aim for the love of freaking petterrr.. GAHH

BRAIN esxplossionnnnn

Poop

Poof.

I’m going to start talking to inanimate object again….ohh noooo…

Office Jokes

So there are some things in that the people at the office say all the time. A lotta them are soo funny.

The first one is that whenever they talk about something sexy or think something is hot they say "Hellooo KITTTYY!!" Its soooo greattt. Even the guys say it hahahaha I seriously love it.

The second one is "You just calm down" but everyone says it like "You juss cyalm dayown" its sooo funny.

and the third-and this is my favorite-is when you have a really dumb blonde stupid moment they say "Aw she's so pretty"
hahahahahhahaha its like...."You're really stupid, but its okay, because you're pretty and you might be able to get by that way." hahaha its so great. I love it.

More to come...

Updates!

So everyone....here are some updates on mag's microscopic life =) There are sub-categories provided because this one is going to be a long oneee. Have fun

3 Days with Brandon
These three days were my favorite with him. Lots of cuddling some hiking and walking. It was nice. We went to a water fall that was in a canyon. It took us an hour to get to it and it was HOTTT. Jeebes it was hot. We got there and we were kinda ready to just jump into the little water fall place but we wanted to eat first. We should have waited because by the time we were done eating we were cooled off. Oh well! It was sooo prettyy..and i love pretty places. So it was def a nice thing to do together. There was a lot of green and some shade with pretty water. I loved it. The water was FREEEZING though. Brandon dragged me in to kiss me under the water fall. Cute. i'm glad he did it. The hike back was def worse but it was all worth it. The other two days we lounged around and watched movies, cleaned his pool, went to mcdonalds, shopped at walmart, visted my aunt and uncle, and stuff like that. I loved it.

Caitlin
So I hung out with caitlin and we went to jamba juice and walmart and tye dyed some t-shirts at her house. It was so much fun. I really missed her and i still do. Its a sad thing that she lives kinda far. I'm going to miss her when she moves away to college. sadfaceeee. We ended up putting tattoos all over our bodies. It was hilarious. We were up until like 1:30 doing our shirts. So much fun. She is amazing. The end.

Work
GAH I HATE YOU WORKK!!!! BUT i need the money and the people are nice. Its the work and lack of friends that I don't like. Everyone is sooo nice though. Don't get me wrong. Here are my favorite people from work. Ralph and Annette. I love them! They seriously get me through the day. Annette works down at the call center but I go down there to visit her a lot and when i can and we have five min chats. She is so nice and HILARIOUS. I dunno if its because she is black or not. And I dunno whether that was a super racist comment. I don't mean it to be offensive in anyway but she is just sooo funny. And then there is Ralph. He doesn't try to be funny but he CRACKS ME UP. Oh mannnn. He is this nerdy philipino dude that has braces and a bad mustache. Not so attractive but hilarious. We get along pretty well and he supervises me a lot because Amber doesn't have a lot for me to do. He went a whole week calling staples-staplers and visa versa. I could not contain myself. It was so funny. Anyway, he does nerdy stuff like that. Its pretty great. Between him and Annette, I can live through work. And talking on aim every so often and reading my book helps too.

Wisdom Teeth
So i got my wisdom teeth pulled on July 3rd. I was sooo drugggeedd. AND they drugged me triple the the amount of catie. WHAT THEY HEY?? It felt like twenty mins but it was really like three hours. They had to wheell chair me out of the place to the car. I remember literally seeing two of everything. They stuffed my mouth with gauze so that i looked like a freaking squirrel in the spring. It was horrible. I remember being dizzy and hungry and going to the carl's jr drive through and whining for a hamburger but my mother would not buy me one! I was crying hhahahaha watta lame-o. I ended up being naseous the whole day anyway and i slept mostly and threw up a few times and i couldn't open my mouth all the way blah blah. So Catie and I woke up around 7 i think and we stayed up the WHOLE night ironing beads together and stuff and watching tv too. Eddie came over and made beads with us too. We were up until seriously 5:30 in the morning. Crazy....but super fun. hahah

Laser Tag
So I think i finally found something that i'm semi-good at! I beat everyone by a thousand points during the free for all. Its pretty awesome. Love it. I was the destroyer again. I recently went with Marissa, tess, eddie, and catie. It was pretty fun. Then we came over to my house and played apples to apples and then we went over to marissa's house and watched emperor's new groove. Good times.

Running
I started running again. Its actually Really refreshing. And i've lost four pounds so far. yay! slowly i'm losing weight but at least its happening. It puts me in a pretty good mood in the morning too. I ALSO GOT A RICHARD SIMMONS WORKOUT VIDEO!!! Its so much fun. He is the sweetest most fun man ever. Love it.

Shopping with Marissa
So with our first pay checks, marissa and i went shopping at otay ranch mall. I'm going to make a list of the things that i bought. I spent around a hundred dollars *yay*
1. A really cool headband from H&M
2. Earrings from H&M
3. Three pairs of cute undies from Victoria's secret
4. A new bottle of lotion from Bath and Body works/Sweet Pea
5. An Earring screen from Clairs
6. A piece of Pizza
7. The perfume Sofia by benefit
8. LoveJoy Blush from sephora
I think thats it. I'll come back and add it later if i remember something else.

Harry Potter
We went to the midnight premeire of HP 6. It was amazing. Most people didn't like it but i LOVED it. Its officially my second favorite HP. My favorite will always be the first one. A lot of people I know didn't like it =( Oh well. I'm just weird i guess. Tess and I dressed up. It was pretty fun.

Day with Brandon
I got to spend the day with brandon last saturday. I felt sooo relieved during and there after. I get so stressed with the time apart and everything. It really sucks. We watched some movies and walked around and looked at some stores. I bought him some takis. He loved them =) We got some food at a taco shop and had our chips later. We also stopped by the 99 cent store and I got the coolest Jonas Brother photo album. He tried to make it so i wouldn't buy it hahaha it was funny. Anyway. Loved the day with him. I always do.

Nom
I found my nom stencil and put it on my wall =)

DONE!

I'll try to keep up so i don't have to do this again.

-mag aka bella (That story is for another time )

Mag's Clays

The Great Shipwreck of Life

This song leaves me speechless. Oh how i love music! This is a haze of a sweet escape for my ears and soul. Oh how the word love wouldn't even begin to describe this song for me. I tip my hat to you once again chris. I'm also really addicted to your song, Sick. And thirdly addicted to Heads Will Roll by yeah yeah yeahs GENIUS! Go watch the music video!!! but anyway. Here is mag's tribute to only few of the wonderful songs that she has.

I'll be Peter Pan and you just be pretty.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZK4SUof_yv8&feature=channel_page

So...

So I have a HUGE blog that i'm working on that includes recent events in mag's life but i'm still working on it. This is a just for now kinda thing. Here are a few things that i want to do before I die.

1. Go Skydiving. In the next year for sureee i will go. It looks like the experience of a lifetime.
2. Go skinny dipping in a pretty lake under the moonlight. This one is more of a need to do.
3. Ride in a hot air balloon.

I have more and I will be thinking of more because my mind continues to work and my soul continues to grow and change.

The sensation of coming into physical contact with Brandon never gets old. I think about it a lot. He's the number one thing that I think about. Obsessive? Not really. Desperate? Possibly. In love? Strongly. Its hard. I won't lie or stretch any truth about that. But I still love him and I'm doing my best to make this work.

peace

-mag

Muffley

My muffy dug a hole into a backpack and slept under my dad's jacket....cutest thing ever?! CHYAA
Feel free to be jealous. Turn green. Cross your heart!!! CROSS ITT!!!

Love you muffin. <3

p.s. UP was like the best movie i've seen in a long time. Loved it.

Two Days/iamx

On Friday and Saturday I spent time with Brandon. Easily my favorite two days with him. I drove up there after taking domino to school and picked up brandon and then he helped me try to find my Aunt cici's house. We got SOOOO looooossstttedd. It was fun though. We ended up calling her and she helped us find our way. We stayed a bit and talked for a while and i got the key to the house. Then we went back to his house and snuggled a bit and watched movies. One of my favorite things to do in the entire worlddd. Then! we got subway :3 We got a spicy italian and split it with some potato chips and ice tea. We drove to the park and had it there. The park is soooo preetttyyyy. It has a lake and really pretty green grass. We basically had a little generic picnic there but I loved it anyway. I had been craving that sandwhich for soooo looong. haha. So we had sandwhicheys and talked about the weirdo birds there en stuffs. The park with the lake was a very nice place to just be. Then we went back to his house and watched some more movies :3 Then! we went to the concert yaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy...!!! IAMX was soooo GOOD It was just out of this world. Nothing compared to my Keane experience but i would deffff go see iamx again. Good stufff. They are so original and amazing and soooooo goood at performing. Jeanine was SOO COOL. She's like my new idol. Love her. She was amazing. Chris was just indescribable. His talent is so much more apparent through the way he performs. I wish i could meet him. He and Jeanine had the coolest moments where they interacted with each other on stage. I was so jealous. I wish I could interact with someone like that involving music. I would have to learn how to read music and produce it first i guess. haha. And i had Brandon there =) That was amazing. He watched over me and helped me when i needed it and always offered to do something extra. He's a really good boyfriend. <333 We stood for soooo looongggg. Like over three hours i think. We also made fun of some of the freaky people there hahaha there were some crazy people there. There was one couple that was SUPER hella effing drunk and they were soooo ready to do each other right then and there. I was cracking uppp. On our way out i was struggling to walk because I was sooo sore haha. When we got to the curb, Brandon scooped me up onto the sidewalk. It was so sweet. <3 We drove back to his house and I dropped him off after kissing him goodnight and went back to Aunt Cici's to sleep. I slept until around nine and left a note saying thank to them for letting me stay over. I went over to Brandon's and on the way i got some french toast stix that we split. =) We watched some more movies and then went to the movies and watched up. SOOOOOO gooood. I Loved it! Five stars for me. Then we went to the mall. Omg....the forever 21 there was huuuugeeeee.. two huuugeee flooors. It was amazing. I was going crazy. Brandon liked watching me pick out things and look through everything. It was cute <3 I choose out a lottaaa stuff and i only got one sweater haha. I also got some earrings and Brandon bought my a little coin purse shaped like a heart <3 I love it. We were there for an hour.....I was going at super duper speed mode too!! Crazy. I could spend a good day in there and maybe come back the next day. I'm def going to take marissa there sometime. Then we went to Victoria's Secret because I wanted to show him something but their's was sooo smalll. The one me and marissa went to was bigger. Then we went back to his house and snuggled one last time to Nightmare before Christmas. Then I had to leave. =( Thats the worst part always blahh. Its soooo harrdd... and then when I get home the day after is just horrible. Like I need my drugs. Bad withdrawal. bad bad...

Anyway, The two days we had together were amazing and I loved it. =) I'm going to spend another three days with him and i can't wait. <333

Frustrated

I wish all of my entries could be happy or funny or about trivial events that go on in my life but they can't all be so. Some do most unfortunately cover the bad things too. This is the warning that this isn't a happy one. I'm frustrated. For many reasons.

I'm frustrated because i can't keep my hands off of food and i don't know why. Because it keeps me overweight which makes me feel worse about myself.
Frustrated because i'm covered in acne. It won't go away and everyone else gets to have semi-perfect skin.
Frustrated because i go around telling other people that body image shouldn't matter yet i over judge myself. It shouldn't matter but I worry about what i look like all the time,
Frustrated because i'm not good at anything.
Frustrated because I can't find a normal job for the life of me. Stupid port job. At least its a job.
Frustrated because i'm sore and ache all over even when i'm not moving.
Frustrated because of a dream where i got raped over and over again. Waking up emotionally drained is horrible.

But just one thing really pushes me over the edge. Everything else is bearable most of the time but this last thing is the worst and has the biggest impact on me.
Frustrated because i'm in love with someone i can't be with. To have someone that makes you so happy and not have them at the same time is sooo hardd. I'm blessed that i have him in the first place. But no one has made me happier when i needed it the most. He was there for me when i didn't think i could go to anyone else. To be so emotionally drawn to someone and then be separated is torture. I did this to myself. I could have easily in so many places in our relationship have stopped it from growing into what it is now, but i didn't. I needed him and i always do. People tell me that i still have it easy and that i shouldn't be complaining but i don't careeeee. I'm GOING to complain. He makes me feel good about myself and loves every bit of me and he makes me happy. To not have enough time with him hurts and this is my greatest frustration.

I don't believe in the saying you can't truly love other people until you love yourself. I don't love myself 100%. Sure i'm comfortable with myself and love myself enough that i can function normally and not do anything rash or crazy but there are things about me that i don't love at all. So there, i don't love myself completely. Do I love my family? Yes. Do i love my amazing friends? Yes. Do I love my boyfriend? More than anything.
Its not a fake love or a false love or anything thats unhealthy. Its the goodness and happiness that they give to me that i wish for the rest of them. Therefore i do not have to love myself completely to truly love them because i do love them. So much.

So this one was a sappy one. But i'm human. And this is a way to help figure out what i'm actually feeling. And it helps.
This one was depressing i know and i apologize.

-Sappy sap sappy mag
byes

Crazy Weekend

So! I had a fun filled crazy busy weekend. It was nice. I'm going to love the summerr.

Friday.
So Catie and I drove downtown for raf's graduation. We had to park in horton plaza and get the ticket validated and this sales lady totally scammed me. She was so pushy and to make her shutup, i just bought the makeup she was selling. 10 bucks. The makeup works well but i really didn't wanna buy anything gah. I'm such a pushoverr.... Raf's graduation. Kinda boring but still fun. I ran into a lot of people i haven't seen in awhile like Steph, Carly, Lizzie and Jake. =)
Then me rosie and catie walked over to horton plaza where we said hi to veronica working her shift at starbucks and then we went to the car and drove over to Raf's for his grad party. We had food and had a mario-kart tournament. Fun times fun times.

Saturday
Slept like nobody's businessss. hahahah Went to the festival at school for awhile and played the wii with raf tess and marissa. That was pretty fun. I think i suck at all video games hahah Then i went with the fam to Emily Jenson's singing recital. She was sooooooo gooooood. She wants to pursue a career in opra. She could totally do it. It was at a piano place and i messed with the pianos and my mom bought my sheet music! She bought me harry potter and high school musical :D
Came home, talked to my boyfriend on the phonee until we fell asleeps.

Sunday
Woke up. Went to a Girl Scout thing for like 4 hours and taught little girls how to make pudgie pies and pudding and vinegar rocketss. That was funnn. The kids are cute. Then we went to choir practice and then mass and then had dinner at the festival after mass. Went on some jumpers and then came home and talked to the wonderful boyfriend again.

Nice Weekend. =)
This is what i've been waiting for. A crazy busy fun summer and i look forward to having more time with my friends and Brandon especially <3

YAY SUMMER

Dear Dear

At mom's school. Bored. Thought i'd do a little writing writing writing.
Dear iPod,

You may not be the best but you do your job. At the moment, you are entertaining me. I wonder what it feels like to hold music. Oh the metaphors that just ran through my head. The idea of holding music. It sounds comforting. I wish i could hold music. I would be so tempted to eat it. OH to taste music would be amazing. I'm not sure if i would use my time to do anything else. Moving on.

Dear Empty Cans and Bottles,
When one is in need of money you become extremely valuable. I've recently been keeping an eye out. You guys like to hide out in random places. Under desks, on roofs, on the street, in the livers of whales. I'm not Jonah. Just come out. Hiding is no good. Look at it this way. If you stay hidden then you stay there and rot and disinegrate alone. If you come with me, you get to go with a bunch of friends into a bag, which is basically a party. Then! you get to be taken to the recycling center and compressed with your friends and sent away to a place where they clean you up, re-melt you, and make you into a nice new bottle again. Doesn't that sound nice? Your fate is in your hands. Some of you can't escape so make your decisions wisely.

Dear Dear Dear,
You've become a kind of blog entry for me, where i can write my thoughts out to inanimate objects. Its kind of comforting making my thoughts concrete in this way. Keep em comin and Thank you =)

Dear Missa,
Mermaid

Dear Brandon,
Warm Cookies

Dear Eddie,
Ashley

Dear Caitlin,
Sourpatch Kids

Dear Catie,
Corn

Dear Everyone else,
Pay it Forward

over and out
-mag

Fever Ray

Oh i love Fever Ray. And who ever did this video is seriously a genius. <333333



OH I LOVE THIS. Beautifull <3

IAMX & Imogen Heap

So...I loooveeee Imogen's music. Its amazingg. Beyond amazing. But here's the thing. IAMX is also amazing. Its a weird dark synthetic popie type of thing. But its genius. I downloaded the New Album a few days ago 'Kingdom of Welcome Addiction' and its SUPERB. Beautiful and psychotic. Its truly amazing. I discovered a very sweet surprise while listening to the new album. Track number four is called 'My Secret Friend'. And guess what? I had no one to freak out about it to. I don't know anyone else who likes IAMX as much as I do besides Fraser and he doesn't like Imogen Heap, which left me to freak out on my own.

Guess WHATT???

WHAT?

IAMX FEATURES IMOGEN HEAP IN A SONG ON THEIR NEW ALBUM!!!!!!

Omg....REALLY??!

YESS!!!! Its AMAZINGG!!! And the PERFECT combination because you love Imogen Heap AND IAMX!!!!

I KNOOWW RIGHT?? OMG Mussttt listeennn.....!!!!!

so there you go. Nature of Inviting is also pretty amazing. Chris and Imogen sound like angels singing together in My Secret Friend though. OH its just lovely.

peace
-mag

Bella and Tara

A story I saw on Oprah that truly truly touched me. Its so beautiful.

http://www.oprah.com/media/20090416-tows-tarra-bella

Keane Concert

Okay. I'm in my second to last history class. After this one, there's one more left and then the final. I'm going to take this opportunity to talk about my Keane experience. It was far beyond words.

So we got there it was beauuufitull. It was smei-fancy looking and twice the size of soma. The carpet was blue and there were three levels that you could stand on. We stood on the lowest one of course. After we bought stuff, (I bought a shirt and a poster), we went to the middle level. We found out then that we could go even closer to the lowest level so we did that. I wanted to be as close as possible to the band i've been in love with for six years. I couldn't get over how close we were. We were like 15 feet from the stage and i can remember struggling to get within 30 feet uncomfortably to mathew from muse. We stood for the loongest time. around 7:30 the first opening band played, Helio Sequence. They were sooooo goooodd. I was only anxious and kind of annoyed because i was itchy to see Keane, but Helio was amazing. I'm deff gonna buy some of their music. The second guy was matt and he sounded exactly like Christ Martin from Coldplay. He wasn't as good as the first band but he was still really really good. The lights were variations of blue and purple and were constantly moving. It was soo pretty. The opening bands took TWO hours. TWO. It was semi-frustrating. They were lucky that their music was good because i was ready to bust a cap. So my feet were already aching like crazy and my legs hurt and i was nervous and anxious and i wanted to see keane already. And then out of nowhere they were walking out and everyone was going crazy. I don't know if crazy was a good enough word for how i reacted.

Wait hold on. Teacher is catching my attention for freaking once.

Okay false alarm. He's talking about the border. Like I've never heard about that before.....pff.

So i saw the four of them walking on and i could NOT contain myself. I started shaking and screaming like a pathetic groupie who's life revolved around worshiping them. Only my musical life revolves around them of course along with other music. Muse and Keane were competing in my stats for awhile but Keane pulled through. I was in shock as Tom Chaplin walked up to the mic and smiled at all of us. Tim took the piano of course. Jesse, a substitute for a computer they used to use, took the bass and richard the drums. The background light was a rich rich blue and brought out the blue triangles in the blue bakcdrop they had. The backdrop was the pattern that they have on the cover of Perfect Symmetry. Tom was wearing a salmon colored shirt and a blue jacket, both of which fit him very nicely. Jesse was wearing a pick shirt with some words on it. I can't remember what it said. Richard was wearing a pink shirt too and Tim was wearing a yellow shirt. They were all wearing black jeans. All amazing. This all happened within like 3 seconds because they dove right into The Lovers Are Losing. I was acting like a freaking hippy, but i didn't care. I was singing and dancing (embarrassment) and tears escaped me during the first song. They eventually disappeared but out of happiness. I couldn't stop smiling or looking at them. Tom's haircut was perfecttt. Beyond perfect. They were all much more gorgeous in person, especially Tom. They played song after song and the quality of it was AMAZINGGG. I could hear the music and his voice distinctly and clearly. The way Tom moved on stage was just pricelesss. It wasn't dancing but it wasn't walking either. It was like he invented his own type of movement. It was amazing. He played the piano once and Your Eyes Open on the guitar alone and the rest of the time he sang. The times that he talked to the audience he was sooo sweet and outgoing and welcoming. He smiled the whole time. It was like he was as happy as we were to see him. His voice was AMAZING. Liquid pleasure to my ears and soul. Around the middle of the concert i wanted to get his attention so i threw my purple headband onto the stage. He started laughing and he kept looking at it. My heart was going crazy. I was so shocked and happy and alive with the fact that something I did he reacted to. That i influenced even if the smallest, a fraction of his life. He was smiling as he said that someone chucked something onto the stage and that it was purple and he couldn't tell whether it was a headband or something else. I was shaking and screaming...i seriously couldn't control myself. Then he TOUCHED IT and moved it to the space in front of him behind the speaker. Oh i swooooned and shook with happiness. The best part of this was that i caught it on video. Oh the memory shall lie with me forever. The only part that i wish i could take out is my constant screaming....embarrassment. I got videos of some of the songs although they don't even come NEAR to what it was like to be there in person. They ended with Bedshaped one of my favorite songs by them. Tom had us sing some parts of it. Pure Heaven. The peacefulness and the unity that we all had was amazing. Tom connected with us during the whole show. Oh it was so amazing. I totally lost track of time and i didn't notice the muscles in my legs and feet protesting and edging at a riot. I was soooo happy and high of of the music i had just experienced and my voice was pained with scratchyness. I tried to get my headband back but they wouldn't let me onto the stage. Oh well. On our way out we saw people waiting for them to come out and we did the same thing. I was already happy with the concert itself. I felt so gifted to have the opportunity to meet them. Tim came out first. Oh he was sooo nice. So classy and his accent was amazing. I asked him what his favorite color was and we talked about his experience in piano. Amazing. I even got a picture with him swoooon. Then Richard came out along with Jesse. Richard wasn't taking pictures but he was still extreeemly nicee. We got to talk to him too. He had smiley faces on his drumsticks haha. Then we talked to jesse and we talked about the shirt he was wearing and where he buys his clothes en stuff. Loved it. I got a picture with him too. Jesse, Richard, and Tim all signed my poster. Then TOM CAME OUT. Ohh jeeez. I was stalking him while he was talking to the other people. I got a little video of that. I had to wait my turn. BUT unfortunately his manager was getting upset because they had to leave and just as he got to us he was pulled away. I was lucky to get into a blurry picture with him as he was trying to take more than one picture at once. It was unlucky but i was unable to find myself sad. I was happy that i got to be so close to him. He was standing only a few inches from me. I was happy with that. The fact that we didn't get his signature or get a clear picture with him doesn't bother me. I'm glad. I would hate to dwell over it and get angry.

The night was sooo amazing. So many years i've been listening to their music. So many times i've put sunshine or any other of their songs on repeat. So many times i've listened to them and took their music into the deepest parts of my heart and soul. IT was one of the most amazing nights of my life, and i plan on seeing them again sometime. Its worth almost any amount of money. Amazing.

-mag

Just Killing Lobsters

Dear Dear

So Brandon's internet wouldn't work today. bleh. I was re reading things he's sent me and he sent me this on my birthday. I never get tired of reading it. I feel like i don't deserve someone like this but somehow i ended up with someone who loves me like this.

"I love you soo much and I am glad that you love me. I'm sorry I can't be there with you for your birthday so you could kiss me, touch me, and express your love how you want to, I want to be there with you and spend every possible second with you... You mean more than everything and anything to me. And I can't tell you how much I love you because words cannot describe. You are the best thing that has happened to me in a long time and I love you and I am happy that you love me, and you are my heartbeat, the reason why I live. You are the only person I have loved like this and I don't know what life would've been like without you. You are the most beautiful person I know of and I am lucky to have you because you complete me. You are PERFECT to me in every possible way, and I want to do anything for you... although I can't give you the stars, or the moon, or the sky, or other amazing things in this world, I can give you all of me that I am and all my love, my whole heart... Happy birthday, darling. <3" -Brandon


thank you love <3 I will always remember this.

perfect

Does your life get any more perfect that thiss?!?!??!?!!!

GAHH

Annoying people from history...

Rawr. In history again....

cannot express how boring this class is. He thinks i'm taking notes.
This class is the trash in the trash can.
The distance between me and Brandon.
The money I owe for my speeding ticket.
The spit of a turtle.
The urine of the giraffe.

Anyway. You get the point.
Our teacher is asking us what an American is.
rahhh
annoying girl responded, "Fat over weight white man..."
Okay firstly, she is over weight too...
Secondly, she repeated the word fat by saying overweight. Its like saying look at that skinny thin girl. oh these people. I have my moments too but these people are killing me.

The annoying people are sooo annoyingg...
HAHA I just made one of the annoying guys mad. Sooo funny. Soooo worth like a dollar.
All of the annoying people were ALL talking at once. They always do. Drives me crazy. I'm sure it drives other people crazy too. So i blurted out, "HOW ABOUT EVERYONE RAISES THERE HAND WHEN YOU WANT TO SAY SOMETHING."
hahahhaahaa pure silence and then the teacher says "Yes!" and he points at me and says, "That is a very good idea magdalena." hahahhahahah then one of the annoying guys says, "Butting in isn't raising your hand either." What was i supposed to do?? Wait for them to finally shutup and ask them kindly to raise their hand?? I needed to say that when they were in the act. While they were commiting the crime!

woop woop i got teacher points AND made the annoying peple angry. two cocaroaches with one foot.

oh man. Thats the most action i've gotten in history all semester.

So I'm basically typing everything I'm thinking except that i think faster than i type so I don't get to type everything i'm thinking. Just some of it.

I'm surprised that Oprah hasn't had obama on her show yet.
ahh I'm freeezing. The AC is going crazy in here.

I wonder how long a human being could last without food. I need to look that up. Cuuurrious.

Daydreaming....Its very distracting. I was kinda half asleep too but my eyes were open.

Yesterday I successfully made it to LA and back without getting caught. I coudln't tell anyone of course. Brandon snuck me in and we watched a movie. It was nice to escape home and school for awhile. I wonder when i'll get to see him again...
Its 10:30....fifteen more mins. I can do thissss. I think i might be getting taller again. I'm appearing more skinny than usual yet i weigh the same. I like the idea of a 5'5 mag. I'm crossing my fingers.

I need to apply for schools in the fall. I'm scared. But i want to get out of southwester. Its a prison in so many cruel wayss. gahh. I'm all stressed now. I can't find a fucking jobb. =( I broke down and sobbed my eyes out about it last week. The panic and stress that i felt was so immense and painful. If I don't find a job by May 1st, then we have to cut esthela's hours because we won't be able to afford it anymore. It kinda makes me feel like its my fault....i hate it. I think I'm going to apply at seaworld and call it a day. They better fucking hire me. I'm freaking out here.

Okay. Class is done in 5 mins. I'm gonna save and close up.
bye

I Put Splenda in my Wine

(another blog i wrote in my boring history classss...also i put splenda my wine. I feel like that says a lot about me for some reason. And one last thing, I'm going to be blunt and just say it. Wine makes me horny. Every time i drink it i get turned on. Its so yummyy though. Anyway thats that)

yay another blog i wrote in history.

Soo hotttt. I'm excited to swim today. Its going to feel very nice. This class is so boring. There are a lot of annoying people in here. Annoying person number one would be the girl front...she just talks without raising her hand. And the tone of her voice is like: I know what i'm talking about so everyone else should just shutup. There are two guys like that that sit in the back. So sometimes i'm listening to three people all talking at once.....gaahh i hate this class. I'm doing surprisingly well though.

So the funniest thing in the world happened last night. Of course it involves Catie because she is the funniest person I know. I was up late talking to Brandon and eddie and she stalks into the kitchen extremely angry and she says, "Your internet still works?!" I responded with a yes and why. She says that netnanny cut her off at midnight from the home computer. I was cracking up.

I think we are going to watch a movie....disney???
dang he turned it off.....

Stuffss

Bah. I have a headacheeeeee...

This history class is so boring. I still have 53 mins left of this class. At leas it looks like i'm taking notes.
Oh man his handwriting looks atrocious. I can hardly read it. I have so much homework to do tonight. I have a five page paper to write, i have to study for a midterm i have tomorrow, and I have to put another paper together that we have to do about homeless people. The people in my group sent me their stuff.

I think I'm going to fall asleep. We'll see what happens. I'm soo tired....

What the hell did i type 'we'll see what happens.' Whyyy????

My mom found microsoft word for my computer. I'm excited to put it on my computer. I want to back everything up though just incase.

I have to do so many things for Catie's party. I need to make a listttt...like now.

1.) make sign for wall - I need to make a huge sign that says catie so that i can put it on the wall later.
2.) I need to invite more people.
3.) blow up more balloons. rawr
4.) make more of those streamer thingys.
5.) clean like there's no tomorrow.


And the thing is. I can't start on any of this tonight because i really have to do that school work. I hope i don't fail my american civ class. We have only done two quizzes and one midterm. I bombed the quizzes and i dont think i did so great on the midterm.

I really hope catie likes her party. I invited a lot of people that she used to love to hang out with. Diane is coming, Andrew is coming, hopefully nora. I'm pretty sure Catie has no clue about the party. This is a good thing. This is when my lying skills are handy. My mom is actually a pretty good liar too. Kudos mom, Kudos.

bah I'm kinda stressed right now, now that i think about it.

i'm all twitchy and worrysome. Let me make a list of people that i think/know are coming.

1. me
2. dad
3. dominic
4. mom
5. tom
6.veronica
7. veronica's boyfriend
8. eddie
9. tess
10. raf
11. tom
12. rosie
13. andrew
14.nora
15. diane
16 roseanita
17. Aunt susie
Okay those are the people that i'm 99% sure are coming. Now here are the potential i hope they will come people.
18. Mary jean
19. Janine
20. George
21. Willie
22. Willie's girlfriend
23. Judith

Poop.. I need to invite more people. gawrarawrrgarrrr

We should play games....hmmm.

ahh 15 more mins. I am so tireddddd... I want to be with Brandon =( I miss him so much. Its driving me insane. blehh

12 mins....I'm doing pretty good in this class. I cant say the same for my other history class though. blahhh I'm just trying to kill time here. 11 mins left.

W ho else could i invite? I can't think of anyone. hmmmmmm

O: I should invite maarielllll....

The girl in the girl has a PC and it looks really grossss....

Sitting in History...

I'm doing pretty well in this history class.

i got an 85 on the midtem. He prolly thinks i'm taking notes but really i'm writing a blog entry for later. AND i dont have microsoft word so i have to use the ghetto text edit application to type any text haha

omg! Eddie got keane tickets..i dont think that i've fully comprehended that i'm going. I'm so excited.

Last night catie and i went to petco to get some gold fish. They were SO cheap!! they are like 13 cents a piece. A piece lmao...i mean.. They are like 13 cents per fish!!

Anyway. So we wanted to get a LOT. At least 10 gold fish. But the guy wouldnt let us. He recommended that 4 was a good amount for the size of our tank. He insisted that we dont get more than that. So instead of causing trouble, Catie and I cheated and went to walmart to get more fish after petco haha.
We also got another suckerfish. He is sooo tiny compared to Remora. I named him Remora Jr. :3 He is a cute patootie.

So i finally learned how to put in tampoonies the right way. I don't even feel it when its in anymore. I HAD to start using them for swim but i think i will stick to using them for next time. They are cleaner.

I can feel my wisdom tooth coming in the back. I'm going to get them removed at some point. But i want Brandon to be there. Not there while i'm getting my teeth removed but afterwards. I know i will feel miserable when i'm done. I'm going to want to snuggle with him and watch movies or something. It will definitely help...

I get that feeling whenever i feel miserable. I always feel like the cure would be being in the arms of Brandon under some blankets and watching some movies or something.

Okay so recently Andrew and i discovered that we both have the same break on mon/wed/fri so we have been hanging out in the library and so that the people near us couldn't hear we were typing some of it. I added some side notes to make it more comprehendible. Side notes are in parentheses. I also added names so that later when i read this, i will know who typed what. Here goes:


Me: (the guy across from us was really old and asian) he wants to learn how to play some b ball

Andrew: he thinks you can learn ANYTHING through reading. i bet he learned how to make out using a book about it. those two girls sitting next to eachother thought it was twin day.

Me: twin goth day* i like this song ( we were listening to a song on my laptop)

Andrew: it's called haemog- (he stopped typing because he realized the name of the song was obviously on the laptop hahah)

Me: the guy in the far back looks egyptian

Andrew have you ever watched "the mummy"? it's imhotep.

Me: with a pepsi one....(He had a pepsi)

Andrew: i heard it has only one calorie

Me: (writing about something this other guy we knew said.) Richard: Is it true that diet root beer has NO calories??

ANDREW: the eye of a werewolf. the tears of a gypsy. the breath of a vampire.

Me: (a bunch of people walked by carrying plastic bagsss) tourists

Andrew: (looking at a guy posing weird) he wants to be america's next top model

Me: his shoes match his shorts....they look like they were made out of carpet

Andrew: (looking at a ganster black guy) i can't tell if he's a blood or a crips

Me: hes in both

Andrew: catie has met her match
( looking at two more black people at another table) the guy who just sat down is caramel-colored. coffe with cream, the guy who just walked by said to him: coffee is good with cream but better when it's black

Me: i'm sorry andrew...did you WANT to get shot??

Andrew: no he's intellectual.

Me: ohh...okaayyy

Andrew: he's a non-violent black, the opposite of catie.


END

hahaa so we talked a lot too but thats the stuff we couldnt say out loud i guess.

Last night i was soooo tireeddd and catie kept snoring and i couldnt sleep because of it. After awhile i got frustrated and stopped trying. i started crying and my mom heard me and she let me sleep out in my room. It was so nice out there. I had my little heater and it was nice and quiet. I only woke up like twice in the middle of the night =) that has to be a record. I wake up like once an hour when i sleep in the house. I hate being a light sleeper. I fall asleep to movies a lot but i feel like its a different kinda noise than snoring. I put on the movie really quiet too.


blehh we have 20 mins left of this stupid class.

OH YA
I saw the coolest thing like 15 mins ago when i went to take a pee break. So this lady in the back is typing on her phone O: !!! She bought a keyboard that hooks up to her phone. How cool is that?!?! And its not super big like a normal keyboard. I wanna say its like 8 inches wide and a few inches tall. So big enough to type easy and small enough to look super duper cool. So i guess she is typing and saving it on her phone. It had a little stand so that her phone stands up right so she can see what she is typing. I cant stop glancing over my shoulder to look at it. She prolly thinks i'm going to stalk her. hahaa or am i....dun dun dunnnn hahaa...but rreally....hahaha okay i'm done.

See?? this is what the history class does to me. 17 more mins.

poops. Brandon stopped texting me. I guess he switched classes or something. hahaha the asian guy in the front is bobbing his head cause he is falling asleep. Aw poor guy...he looks so tired. I dont know his whole story though. hmmm

omg! I should copy and paste some surveys into text edit later so that i can fill out surveys during this class or something.

13 mins left...i can do this...
breathe....breathe...breathe...
ooo on the bad girls club yesterday, alea (sp?) ad whitney went home.
Alea - i dont like her at ALL she is such a hypocrite and a jerk. She deserved it.
Whitney deserved it too. She is a HUUGE hypocrite. They showed it in the show too. She was yelling and screaming about how in boston you dont hit with a shoe. How you use your fist cause thats how they do in boston. She was yelling about this for like 5 mins. it was crazy. And while she was yelling they showed clips from past episodes where she used her shoe to defend herself HAHAHA what an idiot. She and her family will have fun watching that at home. I really want sarah to go home. She is a beeeyotchh and a whoooree....

10 minss 10 minss...

uh oh. he has our essays. I wrote mine in an hour. I hope i did okay.
Alright. Well i'm out i guess. bye bye =)

-mag

Dont Be Shalloww

There is something i want to address specifically this time and that is shallowness in terms of the way people look.

For school I dont talk to many people because people hardly talk to each other here at all. Every now and then though, I run into a friendly Person. Another thing, since i dont talk to many people at all here at school i dont try at all with my appearance. Often times i will come in my pj's or random t-shirts i dont like because I just really dont care...I'll come with my hair unbrushed and sometimes in slippers. I figure, no one is going to talk to me anyway so why even bother.

In my comparative history of the americas class, I sat next to this guy. I dont even know what his name is. Lets call himmmm john. So so i sat next to john and i have been sitting next to him for the whole semester so far. We started talking en stuff and passing notes during class. This class is SUPER boring so it was nice to have someone to communicate with. this lasted for about a month.

He then realized that the girl behind me is waaaayy prettier than i am. She went up to the board this one time and she has the nicest butt i have ever seen. I could get anything i want with a butt like hers. Anyway, so she is reallly really pretty. She is tall and has long hair plus the butt thing. I used to go to school with her ironically. Her sister was in my sisters class. So he realized how much more pretty she is than i am and stopped talking to me. I havent heard a word from him in a few weeks. He sits in his chair farther back so that he can chat with the girl behind me more. He doesnt even look at me anymore...this saddens me.

Lets get some thing straight though:
I DO NOT have any sort of crush on him physically OR romantically. He is quite unattractive actually. He fills his hair with gel, his breathe stinks, he talks too loud, and he has a mole on his cheek.

Why am I sad that he doesnt talk to me anymore? :
Its nice to have someone to talk to at school every now and then. School is usually hours of boringness and being alone. Both of which i hate. To have someone to chat with twice a week during school hours was kinda nice.

So then comes up the whole shallow thing. Whenever he is talking to her I think: I guess if i was as pretty or prettier than her, then maybe he'd be talking to me. Heck, maybe i would have friends here if i was prettier.

Of COURSE there are attractive people. OF COURSE some people are prettier than others. Some people are hot and some people are not and some are in between. Go ahead and acknowledge it. There is nothing wrong with noticing how attractive someone is. There is nothing wrong with telling someone that you are attracted to them physically. Nothing. My point is completely beside that.

My message to the world is, you can acknowledge the beautifulness of people but dont treat them any different than you would treat the unattractive people. You should treat mostly everyone the same. Everyone should be treated the same. Love someone you think is unattractive as much as the most beautiful person in the world. Making it harder for uglier people to gain attention or love is just wrong.

God doesnt let beautiful people into heaven easier than he lets ugly people.

from the deep thoughts of mag's soul...

-magg

brandon

Brandon wrote this for me. I dont understand how lucky i got to run into him or how God was generous enough to give someone like him to me. I dont deserve him... it scares me but it only makes me appreciate and love him even more.


Every single second, every minute of the day
Even those moments when you are near or away
I’m always thinking only of you and imagining your touch
Thinking of a way to prove to you how I love you so much.

When I am away and you need me near
You have to remember I will always be here
For inside our hearts where no one can see
I am with you and you are with me.

I love you more than anything and everything <3

Imogen Heap

She most defff is a gift to music. She continues to amaze me ....



woow... she just blows my mind.

Thoughts sitting in history...

I'm tired. this class is boring. Its been like the only thing i've been posting on my blog though. So right now he is talking about some guy in history that hit another important guy in history with his cane and it broke. Later some merchants bought him another cane that was inscribed with the words, 'Hit him again'. hahahaa thats some good stuff right there.

I got some people to come to catie's party. I need more though. A lot more. woah abe lincoln wasnt so great looking. hahaa.
hahahai thought i was bored...the girl in the front is on her laptop too and she has text highlighted and she is going through her fonts one by one.

I'm kinda of embarrassed at our civil war because we had just become a new country and then we go and kill each other....tsk tsk.
I guess we needed it though. Slavery is bad.

twenty mins left. but i came late so i shouldnt be complaining.

poop. we are getting into our lame-o groups to play a game to get ready for the midterm. peace.

comparitive bloggingg

I wrote this during my history class on thursday....hahaa so i wrote it on theee 5th


so i finished the drawing for fraserr. I'm stuck however for another 30 mins in this stupid history class...

I got new goggles O: for swim...they are green and blue. They were surprisingly cheaper than i thought they were.
New pair of goggles would cost how much?
a) 8.99
b) 6.95
c) 5.96
Answer is at the bottom of the page.

Ooo i know. I can talk about the doctor's. I had a physical this morning because i've been having headaches like everyday and i'm always tired. I'm so ready to take a nap right now. Anyway. There were a few weird things that happened.

First off. I hate needles. scary business....i couldn't look at my arm while she was taking my blood this morning. She kept asking me if i was okay Nice lady. Once i had a nurse who just made fun of me.
"Haha you cant be scared of needles at this age. Be strong. *laughssss*"
Me: "BE STRONG THISSS!!" *karate chop*

she was mean. Anyway. After the nice lady took my blood, she bandaged me up and walked out to get something and i started laughing. I couldnt help it. I just burst out laughing. The inner choirs of happiness just burst out in glorious laughter. The blood part was doneee!!! I felt kinda insane though. I had to compose myself for when the lady came back.

She took my wieght. Apparently i weigh about the same as a baby hippo. Good or no good? or you might die good?

She took my height...and guess what. Mag grew like an inch in the past year. I am 5'4 folks. Watch out world. Tall mag means business....

omgoshes. yesterday, my other history teacher said specific ocean. I was trying to hard not to laugh. I should have said, 'Be more pacific professor luna'

20 mins left. yargh. The girl in the front is such a suckup. She laughs at everything that is potentially funny that our professor says. Her laugh sounds like she is hiccuping for air.

I cant wait to go for a two hour swim after this. I didn't go on tuesday cause i was a lazy butt. I had just turned in my 4 page paper. I hated writing that thing. The weird thing is, i sat in front of my computer just distracting myself the night before for like 4 hours. I procrastinated and i just didnt know what to write about. At like 1 i went to sleep having only done one and a half paragraphs of my 4-5 page paper. The next morning i got to school at like 8 and i was finished with it by nine. I even had like 15-20 mins to proofread it. I dunno what happened. I was just on fire that morning or something.

I think it would be cool to write a diary of a princess diaries kinda of person. Only the girl wouldnt be a princess. I could make her like 1/4 something else that is cooler. Hm. Maybe like i dunno...1/4 related to abe lincoln. That doesn't even make any sense.

I'm trying to learn a song on the piano for brandon. I'm doing good so far. I need to be a little faster on some parts but it is enjoyable. At some point I'm going to finish learning claire de lune and fur elise. I know i prolly butchered the spelling of those...

hahahhaa the girl behind me i went to school with. She is whispering to the guy in front of her which is the guy that sits next to me and the tone of her voice sounds like she's having an orgasm. I would hate to have a voice like that. It would be like an invitation to rape me. You could say anything and the rapist wouldnt take you seriously...."No....stop...leave me alone...someone help mee stoooppp" If you heard that coming from a girl who sounds like she is gasming through the whole thing the rapist would be thrilled. He's like, I guess she likes it. I'm a lucky guy.

ten mins ten minssss ten minutes
woah i almost forgot how to spell minutes. It was the weirdest thing ever.

Its kinda like the other day, i was over thinking the word every and its actually a nice sounding word. Its like ivory but a little softer. I would name my girl every. Ev for short. If people thought about it as a name, they would think it was pretty right?

I have to peeeeeep. dang. we still have like 7 mins.

I get to see Brandon on saturday :3 hopefully. if not i guess i can do the garage sale by myself or i could go interview the homeless people on my own. hmmm

oh snap i am huungryy. i wasnt allowed to eat anything 12 hours before the stupid physical this morning. 5 minutes 5 5 5 5 555 5 555 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 55 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5

ooof

I like that word. I like the sound of ooooof. The thing is. Once you add another f, it diess and becomes off. So you have to be careful when typing the word oof.

3 mins. I'm going to pack it up. Peace. I will post this on my blog later.

History class on thurss

Okay. I figured that this keeps me sane in this history class. Its nice to have something to put up on my blog too.

meh last night was a messsss.... and i miss Brandon.

Stupid distance... when i think about it though. At least i have him <3 I don't know what i'd do without him.

ouch...my head hurtsssss.

hahaha most of the people who tried looking for gold in 1849 faaailedd....tsk tsk
I can't get over how young my history teacher is. He can't be over 25 or 26.

I figure if i ask questions he will be accuainted with me and will give me a better grade? He's nice. I mean, there's nothing wrong with him. I failed both quizes though. I do the homework. Hopefully that will compensate. And i have 5 page paper to write yaayy...

la la laaaaaaaaa

I love how demetri says "A mobile hoome with a flat tire is just a hooomeee..."
bahhaa

I'm not writing as much because i'm actually trying to pay attention. I was dying of boredom last class for some reason. Its not so bad today.

I feel like being from a different country makes you cooler. Like the guy in front of me was just a normal mexican but then he told the class that he moved here from chile a few years ago. Now i look at him and think, "Hey. There's that cool guy from chile..."

coolness thumbs up.
I'm going to hire some people to follow me and fan me with palms someday. That would be funny.

Or do that thing that one of my friends did to his freshman. Have him dress up like a pokemon and i can say "Pikachu thunderbolt NOOOWWW!" and he would have to squeeze his little but cheeks together and scrunch his face and and scream PIIKAAAAAA....!!! it would be cooler at night because then he could use real sparks at night to give it more of an effect.

history class over. bye byee

History classsss on Tuesday

I’m in history. Bored. My teacher is really young. I’m thinking he is like our age. Not older than 25 anyway. I would be rich if I got a dollar for every time he said, “For the most part…”

HAHA he just said yosemeti is overrated. Idc though. I still wanna go. And that Sequoia is underrated. Hmmm…

Maybe he is secretly like 18. And a super genius. Maybe secret super geniuses teach at community colleges. Hmm…

I take notes though. Don’t think I’m just sitting here doing nothing. He just hasn’t said anything usefull yet. My mom paid 60 dollars for this class. I’m so sorry mom.

Ooo. Mt. Whitney looks prettys. Its white. Like the white witch from narnia. Woah we have a volcano O:

Now he is showing us pictures of Friscoooo. Bahah. I have been there. A long time ago. But I’ve been there. I wish I was a princess. Mia lived in San Fransisco.
Omg. The annoying girl isn’t here. I just noticed. How exciting. Ooo. Now a picture of San Diego Bay. I wish I got internet here…this is like a random class room that is barely connected to the real campus.

Buzz buzzzz….yay a text message. Lets see who its from. Brandon <3 He misses me. I miss him too =(

Woah death valley pictures. The rock left a trail….strange….they don’t know why. I guess it happens all the time? Its like that pizza episode of sopongebob when he drives the rock to the guys house bahah. I love you spongebob.
Apparently. In about 40 million years, San diego is going to break off and slide on over to Alaska. We better start planning. I don’t want my grandkids to the power of 20 million to be freaking out when the land starts to move to Alaska. Oh gawshh….they are going to turn into Alaskan Eskimos.
Ughh I have a paper to write for this class that is due next Tuesday. And it has to be five pages AND we can’t use the internet. I guess I will have to find some historic scrolls or drawings in caves to base my info off of. I don’t have time to read whole books for that.
He’s said for the most part like 3 times already. 45 mins to go of this class. I have a headache. Oucchh. I’m so tired. I’m always tired. Grrr..
Buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 “Watcha doin?”

Me: “Meh. In history class. Boring my bransies out.”

But I am doing a lot of things like sitting and breathing and listening to my boring history teacher. I’m thinking about other things I’d rather be doing. I’m thinking about you…..

Buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 “Aw I’m sorry”

Me: “Oh well x3”

Omg…I just tried to actually listen to what my teacher was saying. I think a little piece of my brain went BEEP BEEP Beeeeoooooowwwwww……*dead*

Too boring.
I have to save my brain for better things like petting hippos or having donuts with fish. Yes fish love donuts. I am a fish expert.

My teacher has those old people shoes…those ones that rich people like Sherlock wear while smoking a pipe and sitting in a chair next to their fireplace going puff puff puff.

OMG BREAKING REMEMBERING NEWS (meaning breaking news but I knew it from before….its just now that I remembered it): Catie thought Sherlock holmes was a female until yesterday. I was dying.

Buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 (hahaha this one stays secret. I don’t want to embarrass him xP)
That reminds me. Fraser has been starting to text me again. Its been about a year since we’ve really talked. I can’t get over how random it was. He has been recommending movies and such and he wants me to draw him another pictoor….which I still need to get started on. I will probably do that during astronomy tomorrow.

My teacher’s handwriting is atrocious…. Its like his pen is a mini jackhammer that spits out ink onto the board.
Or maybe its like he is trying to write with a pointy rock. I haven’t decided. The guy that sits next to me doesn’t take notes. Haha

I might go to mexico with esthela in may. I’m so excited. I’m kinda scared though. There hasn’t been one day since we’ve been together where we haven’t talked. I make sure I reserve time for him every single day. I feel crummy if I don’t get time with him. When I go to mexico…

Buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 he misses me…

I miss him too bleh…stupid distance.

When I go to mexico I won’t be able to contact him at all. No phone no text no internet. That will be soo hard. I can call him but the long distance will cost so much. I will have to work something out.
I should start dance already. My mom said she would pay for it. And I miss it so much.
21 mins left of class…I’m so tired. Bah

buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 he can’t stop thinking about me

same goes for me. Not a minute goes by where I’m not thinking about him regardless of what I’m doing.

I wish I could paint a picture with my brain. Maybe I could see how my mind works that way. There are few people that understand how my mind works. Its like they are in the same paragraph of the same page of the same book. In my mind I am counting around 6 people. Hmmmm
I have to peeeee….i always have to pee. I’m going to need to wear a diaper if I ever get preggers. I wouldn’t make it lmao. Why can’t guys get pregger??? Not fair….we are already physically weaker. I don’t see why the stronger gender couldn’t give birth.

So I have a new addition to my amazing smiley faces. Fraser made this one up though. I think its genius.

Clam: (: )

Hahahah

He showed me that after I showed him my walrus (:3)

Ahh i have to pee….brb

Back

Brandon texted me while I was going to the bafroom.

He wants to quit tennis so that he has more time with me….I really don’t deserve the way he treats me. But that means he’s a good boyfriend right?

I always had this gut feeling that I would be a good girlfriend. I think I am. I try as best I can with the distance anyway. He said something to me the other day that I will never forget. I saved it haha. Here it is:

“you are so beautiful. and so perfect in every way. im sorry. i know you dont like me saying that cause you dont think you are. but you really are. extremely attractive. you make me feel better than anything else and nothing can compare to how i feel when i am with you. and i am in fact addicted to you. i never want to let you go.”

Who says things like that?!? Brandon <3 that’s who. And he tells me that I’M the more romantic one….well take a look at that folks. Clap clap clap.
Omg I hate this classsssssssssss…….7 mins.

I typed out about 3 pages of just pouring my thoughts out. Nice mag niceee

So. Coff coff. My weight is at its peak. It has been increasing alarmingly. I hate it. I am trying to do something about it. I’m hoping its muscle weight from swimming? And other things…..? hmmm.

4mins….

Okay..i’m packing it up peeps. This while end up on my blog later.

Nighty night.

Brandon

So over the past six months or so, I've been collecting songs that remind me of Brandon and how I feel about our relationship. I finally got enough songs to put on it and gave it to him on valentines day. Here is the list of songs:
1. Untouched – The Veronicas
2. Everything, All – The Wrong Trousers
3. All Around Me - Flyleaf
4. Starlight - Muse
5. Tell Me What To Do – Metro Station
6. If I Ain’t Got You – Alicia Keys
7. Yellow – Coldplay
8. Closing In – Imogen Heap
9. Love Story – Taylor Swift
10. Soul Meets Body – Death Cab For Cutie
11. Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
12. No Air – Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown
13. Come Here – J. Holiday
14. Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard
15. In My Life – Beatles
16. Bruises - Chairlift
17. All is Full of Love – Bjork
18. Put Your Arms Around Me – Natasha Bedingfield
19. Such Great Heights – Postal Service
20. Come Away With Me - Norah Jones

I meant to bring my ipod with me so that we could listen to them together when I took him to the fountain in balboa park but i forgot.

He's done so much for me and opened my eyes to things i've never felt before. I didn't think my heart could be so full of love. He says and does things for me that i don't deserve. For this and many other reasons I love him. He says sweet thing to me that i will carry in my heart forever. Today he said to me, "Every time i blink i see your face..." The moments I've had with him are better than any movie or song could ever express.
I could type and endless amount on how much he means to me or moments we've had, but i simply wouldn't have the time.
I thank God for bringing someone like him into my life; for being generous enough to give me someone who would so willingly grant me their unconditional love.

Usher

Amazing....this song and video is romantically sexy. Its the best when you combine the two characteristics. Its why people who have one night stands or no emotional atattchment to the person are missing out....


Beautiful song AND video. took my breath away.

Pain

Its really painful to watch your best friend at soul, struggle emotionally with happiness and then physically hurt themselves.

Its painful to go days without seeing the guy that feeds your spirit with happiness and love.

Its painful to have your best friend be on the other side of the country.

Its painful to be the outlet of someone's frustration because you are inferior.

I could go on. A lot of things are painful. But every happy memory and every happy thought gets us through everything. And it is those things that keeps us going. Its those things that make life worth living.

WIthout struggle, happiness would be a blank piece of paper because we would know nothing else.




(Mag's deep thoughts of the day)

Love

Experiencing these is way better than reading about them. Its a side of me that only Brandon sees. I read about them anyway =) The last one is perfect for me.


"... See there's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me."
--Gretchen Kemp

"Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."
--Robert Sexton

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile, I would have the whole night sky in the palm of my hand."
--Unknown

I can forget my very existence in a deep kiss of you.
--Byron Caldwell Smith

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.
--Unknown

Gente

I was just sitting with Esthela and her sister Rosa. They are so funny...we were talking about one of Esthela's nieces. Then Muffin ran up and sat next to Esthela all excited. And then they started laughing and Esthela was talking to muffin ans she said, "Los animales son gente." And then her sister agreed whole heartedly and said, "Si si. Si saben pero no pueden hablar."

I was cracking up. I really do love them. So much.
I love you too Brandon. I'm almost done with that playlist. AND i saved 25 dollars of the money you gave me. We are going to go to the movies. Kay?

Prince Caspian AND Lion/Witch/Wardrobe ftw.

Here is a picture i took of esthela and muffy. Hero status right here.


And one last thing. I can't stop listening to shiver by coldplay....I swear it was inspired by something non-human. No song is THAT good.
ciao

Starshine

Could this girlget ANY cooler....omgggggg

i wish i was herr

Thomas the Tank Engine

I just bought his album on iTunes =)

is there something wrong with me? maaybee

happy birthday my sweetness <3

Bad Bands

I really want to try to keep on doing these. Sooo just really quickly. These are bands that i really can't stand. I would rather eat food off of assfault than listen to these bands. ahem

1. Pink
2. Fall Out Boy
3. Green Day
4. Red hot chili peppers

can't think of any more

and random fact: In this last month of november i sent and received 3294 text messages. jeeezzz

aye luz you brandon <3