Parents can be irritating

Yes I had a little bicker with each of them just now which is precisely the reason I came outside back to my room. Here is how each of these bickers went.

Mom's Bicker:
"MAGDALENA!!"
"YA MOM?!"
"SOMETHING MUMMBLE MUBMLE"
"WHAT?"
"IF YOU CAN'T HEAR ME THEN COME HERE!!"
I went over to her in the kitchen and stood behind her. I was facing her and she was sitting away from me facing the computer. "Yes mom?" I said.
"Do you want me to sign you up for facepainting?" she said.
"Facepainting for what?"
"For the st. pats festival." she said.
"Ohhh sure! When is it?"
"October 17 and 18" she said.
"Oh well I won't know if I can do that until two weeks before hand" I said, "Can you just sign me up for one day and if worse comes to worse, you can covver for me?" I said.
"Uhm I can work the facepaint from 1:30-3:30" she said.
"Oh Okay" I said.
"Mumble mumble paints" she said.
"what?" I said.
Let me remind you that there are two tv's that I can hear plus the fish tank and my dad talking to dominic. Plus she is facing away from me.
"Mumble to buy some of those paints" she said.
"Mom I can't hear here you" I said.
She did this exasperated noise and said, "mumble wants to buy some paints."
"What??"
Then she starts yelling, "LOOK AT ME!" Like I wasn't facing her the WHOLE TIME!! Gah.
"Mom! I am facing you! YOU are the one who isn't facing me. I can't hear you" I said.
Then she got all offended and I swear I was not yelling yet. My voice was raised because she was yelling at me but THEN she goes.
"FINE! IF YOU'RE JUST GOING TO YELL AT ME!"
"MOM! I wasn't yelling at you! I couldn't hear you ugh. It sounded like you were saying 'they' and I didn't know who you meant by they."
And then she was still yelling, " I. I!!! I!! I WANT TO BUY SOME PAINTS!!!"
I just got frustrated and was over it so I said, "Its fine mom, just don't sign me up. I don't care." And I walked away. bah

Dad's bicker
I was standing a few feet away from him. No trouble hearing. He just thought I Was being a smart ass.
"Magdalena?"
"Yes dad?" I said
"I'm trying to save up ten cartons of those," he said pointing at a water bottle.
"Why dad?" I said.
"For emergency purposes." He said.
"What??? Why don't we just use aluminum bottles and refill them so we don't waste these?", I said.
He rolled his eyes and gave me this look. But I was serious! We waste so many plastic bottles.
"Because magdalena, they are GOOD for keeping for emergencies." he said.
"Well they are BAD for the earth. Why can't we just use aluminum bottles and refill them?" I said.
"Fine Magdalena, You are right about everything in the universe. We should just all do exactly what you say we should..."
And then I walked away. I don't need that crap

Jeeebs

Insta-Marriage

So Marissa and I made lists of people who we would instantly marry. (This is considering we didn't have significant others. I would be true to my love.) Anyway. So this is my list. Guys I would marry instantly without question or hesitation. Not very realistically possible but it was entertaining to think about. I did real people and the Fictional after that.

REAL PEOPLE
1. Joseph Levitt. Swoon
2. Ezra Koenig swooonie
3. James Franco
4. Tom Chaplin
5. Taylor Launter

FICTIONAL PEOPLE
1. Michael Moscovitz ahhhh swoon
2. Spencer from iCarly
3. Fred Weasley
4. Edward Cullen
5. Jacob Black

BAM
I don't remember much of marissa's

Mice

These things drive me nuts. I woke up to one on me once. But I think they are smart. I think that they have this elaborate plan to make me think that I'm crazy. I leave lovely and zesty cheese on traps around my room. But oh NO! That doesn't fool them. For days it goes untouched.....its like they know....

Well guess what? I know too...I know your plan mice. I hear you. Scurrying around on your pebble like paws. I have PROOF!! I bet you're mad that I taped up the hole that you chewed through. I won't break easily. I hear you mice. Oh yes I hear you.

Be warned! Take this message to your queen rat or whatever the freak you worship. I will defeat you. I will. This is a war that you will not win. I'M NOT CRAZY! And you cannot convince me otherwise.

To Do

Things that I Have to do:

~Finish cleaning room
~go to the bank
~Write and Mail letter
~Control Eating
~Renew LIcense
~Hang out with Best friend and say goodbye

I watched like 8 hours of tv yesterday. Honestly I thought it would be more fun than it really was. I ended up almost dying of boredom. Like on the last letter before hangman dies. I need to write more. A lot going on. A lot of plans.

hahaha I am watching the office and Michael just went up to a lady in new york who he thought was tina fey. And while he was doing that, the real conan walked by. So funny.

Okay I should start on my list. I swear to write more mag. Okay mag?

OH and by the way universe....FUCK YOU CAUSE I DID IT! A B in math with the lovely help of Rafael Oceguera, and two jobs. Not a single day off for a month and a half. I almost didn't succeed. Thank you God <3 and thank you mommy

Today

I have work today. At the worst booth.

Today is a new day though and I'm going to make the best of it. AND I promised myself I would take my diet super seriously after math and math is over. When I was dieting before it was working. Since I have stopped, I just stay the same weight. Which is GOOD because it would have been worse if I was gaining when I stopped dieting. So here we go. Time to write down everything I eat and make sure I'm burning more than I am consuming.

I hope I have a good day today. Aleks is working today! Hopefully he will stop by to visit me like he usually does when we work on the same day.

I can't wait to hear 'Let's Get Loud' and 'I got a feelin' 5 times in a row today. Plus the splash music. Fun.

But i will make today a good day!

Time to get ready for work and leave.

p.s. No it does not hurt to think about you anymore Eric :) I am very happy about this. I hope you and your girlfriend are happy together :)
I have my life to live and I am going to do my best to not let anyone bring me down.

I Want to Dream

I dream of you sometimes. I love dreaming about you.

I dream of laying with you again.

I miss that dream I had a long time ago when I was 100% sure I would spend the rest of my life with you. Everything was so beautiful. We were on our honeymoon. I woke up next to you (in my dream) in a large circular bed. It was white and unbelievable soft. I was wearing a white night gown. You were sound asleep and of course your arms were around me. I carefully slid out of your arms to look at where we were. We were in the most beautiful place I had ever seen. Right outside our sliding door was white sand and a beach. It was around 11 and the wind was blowing through our windows. Everything in the apartment we were at was white. While I was looking around you woke up. I heard you calling me. I went back to you and crawled into bed with you and got as close as I could. You kissed me and got comfortable again and fell back asleep. I just watched you smiling the whole time and touched your face. I fell asleep doing that.

It was so peaceful. So simple. So elegantly sweet. I hope my real honeymoon is the same way.

Any girl would be lucky to have you... I'm lucky someone didn't snatch you before I got the chance to fall in love with you. I hope things work out for me and for you so that both of us are happy whether we end up together or not.

I wonder what I will dream about tonight.

Dream

I walked down the movie theater isle pushing the stroller along. She was my daughter. She was sound asleep and unlike me, a very heavy sleeper. I looked at the entrances to each movie trying to decide which one I wanted to see. This was more than a movie though. These were paths of life. I had to choose one. I got a preview of what the path would start out to be and I don't remember much of the other choices except for the one that I picked. I only half chose it. I felt like I didn't have a choice but to choose it. I stood in front of the entrances preview thing with the stroller in front of me and my daughter still asleep. It was a large hole. It was dark but I could see inside the hole. This hole of an entrances was terrifying. On the inside it was night time. There were dead trees and the wind blew out of the hole. It blew my hair and my dress and made me shiver. I had a horrible feeling about choosing this one, but I had to. There were children in the hole. Standing by the trees they were beckoning and threatening me at the same time. Their eyes were holes and their skin dry and dark brown. They didn't look human, but they were children. There was a boy and a girl. They walked forward towards the entrance but they knew they could not leave the entrance. Leading straight into the hole was a dark pathway. They walked on the outside of the pathway and waited. When I did nothing, they screeched and stood there looking at me, waiting for me to go in. I couldn't bare to leave my daughter behind, but I would not bring her where I was going. I would rather she be somewhere safe for the time being. I let go of the stroller and walked forward. I was wearing a dark read dress and a black ribbon in my hair. I turned around and looked back at my daughter sleeping. Tears were flowing down my cheek. I turned around and looked once again at the path in front of me that I had to take. The wind blew and I used my hands to shield my face. It was time for me to go. I took a deep breathe and with watery eyes, I stepped inside the hole and hoped that the end of my pathway would end up better than the beginning.

I don't remember what happened after that. I wonder what it means....

Thank You

I can't count how many times I think of you during the day.
I can't count how many times I wish I could lay with you one last time.
I can't count how many times I wish you would hold me until I fell asleep.

Thank you for putting up with me.

Thank you for holding me in the pond and pulling me under the waterfall to kiss me.

Thank you for the kisses on my forehead and the tingling from my neck to my toes.

Thank you for surprising me from behind and cooking meals for us to eat.

Thank you for distracting me from math homework and making funny noises against my cheek.

I loved the color of your eyes and softness of your neck.

I loved the protection of your arms and the warmth of your body.

I loved falling asleep with you, with my hand on your face and whispering to you that I loved you.

I miss you. But thank you...

When I thought no one would ever love me the way you did, you came along. You were the exception out of my many tries and fails.

I hate paramore but this is a nice song. And it reminds me of you.

Thank you for loving me.