Miss

I miss brandon. A lot. It always gets worse the longer I don't get to see him. I see and hear about bad boyfriends constantly. And no Brandon is not perfect but he is perfect for me. He is perfect for the kind of love that I had been searching for, for years. I never thought any guy would ever love me as much as he does. I never thought that any guy would say words that he has said to me. He makes me happy. Ridiculously happy. I wish I could do every day things with him that normal couples do like grocery shopping in the frozen food aisle or coming over to have dinner or do homework. I'm always jealous of couples who can do that much together. I never get enough time with him and if i had the budget, i would go to him as often as I could. All I can do now is be thankful for him but I do miss him so much. I miss his kiss and his smile. I miss his laugh and obliviousness. I miss just watching him be him. I miss his arms and the warmth of his skin. I miss his touch and the protruding love that comes from every move he makes towards me. I miss him

Dear Mom

Dear mom,
Let me start by telling you that I love you. I love you and this family more than anything. I often times do not understand why you call me selfish when I do a lot for this family that goes unnoticed. I'm so sorry that the dishes did not get done on time. I should have done them myself when dominic decided to go to bed. It hurts so much when you call me selfish and you yell and scream at me. You make me feel like I do nothing right. I'm sorry that you had a bad day yesterday and that you had worked so long and that there were dishes in the sink when you got home. Yes I agree that I did not do my duty in making sure that they got done whether it was my turn or not. But no I do not think that it was okay that you singled me out and targeted me with all of the stress and anger that had built up in you from your long day.
It did not seem like you were ready to listen so after a few attempts I gave up. Hear me out and let me tell you how my day went.
I woke up around 6:30 and got ready for school. Dominic and I left a little over 7. I dropped him off and then drove up to my school. I ran for about an hour and then went to class. I saw your text and I felt bad that I had not read it sooner. I even apologized in my responding text. After class I drove home and had a piece of fruit for lunch, changed and went to work. They have been giving me more work because they are getting ready to change systems in a few months. After work I went to pick up catie and then ran an errand. After that we went home and i didn't have time to eat dinner. I changed and entered some cookie stuff that I needed to do and prepared for the activity that I had to do with the you ger girls that meeting. We were home for less than 40 minutes before we had to leave again. We went to pick up Tess and then jasmine. When we got there we started the meeting. We have recently added two more girls and it is extremely hard to get everyone to be quiet and give Grama their attention but I do the best I can. We then separated and I had to lead the younger girls in their patch books. They were not listening to me and I could barely keep their attention. They were noisy and started running around so after about 20 minutes I gave up. I got more cookie money and I had to coordinate with the new girls and their cookie accounts. I was already drained mentally at that time. Only catie would help me clean up and I tried my best to leave on time because we had to pick up dominic and drop off the girls before it got too late. We left and picked up dominic ans then I took jasmine and Tess home and then we got home a little after 9. I was tired and had not eaten anything since lunch but in order to make dinner I had to clean up some of the kitchen so I did. Then dad was complaining that someone hadto make you dinner and no one else would do it so I made you some extra meat from the spaghetti I was making. I also made some for dominic and catie because they were hungry. Dinner was finally done so I ate and let dominic eat before he finished the dishes. I had to enter the cookie stuff while I was eating into my computer. Dominic was still eating and I was exhausted and asked catie to make sure that dominic finshed the dishes and she said yes so I went outside to get ready for bed. I was out in my room for less than 10 minutes before dad bursted in yelling at me. I didn't understand what was going on so I went inside with him. Yes I was angry at dominic for not finishing and you were yelling at me from the second I walked in. I was already so tired from everything that I had done during the day but I started putting things away and helping you clean. I made one comment about dominic and you started screaming at me. You cussed at me. You hurt me. Yes I should have made sure they got done but all I did yesterday was give give give to everyone else. I helped Grama an went to school and work and drove people where they needed to be and you were yelling for me to get out because I was being selfish. I was so hurt. When you came out the second time you still did not want to listen and did not see that you hurt me. I did everything I could for everyone else yesterday and I did not deserved to be treated that way. I even made you dinner when no one else wanted to and I felt like you didnt even care. So yes the dishes was my fault, but you did not need to go as far as you did with the way you treated me. I love you and I try to do what I can.
-Magdalena.

Bored in math

So I downloaded the blogger app. I don't know why I didn't think of it sooner. I've really wanted to post more blogs but my life has gotten 10 times crazier which is something I did not forsee. I need to try harder though. I get stressed out and less friendly when that happens and the people around me don't deserve to be treated badly by me at any extent because of my stress. I have two maybe three main causes of stress. Everything else branches out or are smaller things that I stress out about. Main cause hands down is cookies. 'Preposterous!,' you say. 'Inconceivable!'. Well no my friend. It's true. 8 different varieties of cookies and 9 girls selling them. I keep track of the money and the amount of cookies each girl has sold. Sounds easy eh? Not so easy. Before I started I thought it would be a breeze to be completely honest. I was not aware that the breeze was in fact a hurricane. I pray to God that all of the money and amount of cookies works out at the end. I don't hate doing it. But it is extremely chaotic. Math is almost over. Until next time and off to anthropology!


-mag

Judge the punkers?

The table in front of me has all of the punkers at it. I swear that every single guy out of the 4 guys have their hair long enough to put into a pony. Tsk. Big tsk. Rarely does the pony work for a guy. Personally I don't even think fabio pulls is off. He looks gross. And he's a manwhore.
All of the guys are wearing black shirts too and one of them has grr from invader zim on it. Surprised? hahahahahah Of course you weren't. Thy are playing some weirdo card game. The guy with the gir shirt was one of my mom's students. I don't think he did a very good job.

My hands are freezing.

Talk to the Mexican Girl?

Things are good right now. For now. We shall see. I need to commit to this. I love writing but I get to lazy to start. A lot of the time I experience things that are happening and I write a blog about it in my head. I should take notes of these experiences. I always forget.

Right now I'm in the student union and I just had a small carton of milk and a bag of hot cheetos. I'm saving my appetite for later because esthela is going to make her foooood. yummmmm. Most amazing food in the world.

I don't like sitting here alone with no one to talk to. I often times just stare around at everyone else. There is a girl sitting here at this table with me and she is doodling on her notebook. She must be bored too. I'm afraid that if i start talking to her that a few problems might arise:

A) What if she doesn't speak english? My spanish is horrible and that would end pretty awkward.

B) She doesn't seem interested. She wealthy. She has a designer handbag and really nice earrings on. She also managed to make her hair look perfect. I'm also pretty sure that the jacket she is wearing is leather. REAL leather. Not that fako plastic leather that hooker's wear.

C) She is hunched over. She is doing that thing where the person hunches over. Her bangs are covering her face. She seems perfectly content in the world she is in right now. I wonder what she is thinking about.

So I won't bother her I guess. I wouldn't want awkward vibes to start shooting off if it went wrong. I needed to write a new blog anyway. Most people at this school are like she is. Rich and mexican. Or asian I guess.

Peace out.

So she could be nice yes but I don't know. I would rather sit here in our own worlds I guess.

Updates!

Sooo lots and lots of updates. Good news and bad news.

I am a third of the way through my Christmas vacation. Bad news: I did not pass my Chemistry class. Good news: Humboldt State University has accepted me =)

I was worried that no school would want me after my D in Chem but in my letter of acceptance they said all I had to do was pass all of my spring classes with a C and have no lower than a 2.0 by the end of the year. I'm good. At least I don't have to worry about having to stay in San Diego for school. I've had an AMAZING break so far. I will try to cover everything I have done at some point.

Today is my boyfriend's birthday and he deserves the world but wanted nothing. I don't understand him sometimes but I love him with all of my heart.

I'm also being very spoiled. I've been getting a lot of time with him which will go down drastically when school starts again.
peace out

Demi Lovato and Selena Gomez

Updates first! School - driving me nuts. Need to study for my life. Family- Going good. Still kinda crazy but still there. Friends- good good good Love life - amazing as always. I got to spend saturday with him and he always puts me in a good mood for awhile. Health- SICK SICK SICK bleh I am getting better though. I can do this!

I wouldn't call myself obsessed with celebrities but I have a good sense of who most people are and such. I focus on the good stuff though. Anyway, I have created a fondness for Selena Gomez. I even had a dream where we were best friends and got an apartment together. It was AWESOMEE!! She is sooo funnnyy. And she is adorable! Too bad we can't be like sisters or something. Anyway, I recored Princess Protection Program which was sooo cuuteee. But! It has Demi Lovato in it and I kind of didn't like her to begin with for no reason whatsoever. Since selena was in the movie, I was forced to give Demi a chance. And she can't replace selena but she is actually pretty cool! Her laugh is SOOO funnnyyy hahahaha. I'm so jealous of their best friend-ness. They are both really awesome though. I have Catie and she is AMAZING! Marissa is an awesome girl best friend too and I wouldn't trade her for anything! I have guy best friends too but girl best friends are different. They provide this atmosphere that only girls can provide. Good stuff! Here is a picture of them. I know they are both ridiculously gorgeous so don't drool

Won a Bet

I won a bet so now I get 10 blogs from my boyfriend within the next 2 weeks! =)

On the other hand. He is going to win this next one. yargh

One Year

So I didn't think any guy would ever put up with me or not get sick of me after a while year, but it happened =) It was nice and simple and still special. We had to do hw for a few hours unfortunately but he had an arm around me the whole time. That was extremely comforting. We went to the house where he has to water and watered the plants and cuddled and snuggled and stuffs. Then we went grocery shopping together because we were going to make dinner and desert together. I really love the simple cheesy stuff like grocery shopping. I love grocery shopping with Brandon. We bought some stuff we needed for dinner and we bought the desert stuff too. We went back to his house and I made dinner while he made chocolate covered strawberries which were DELICIOUS might I add. He put some on my nose a few times. Adorable. He gives me butterflies that make me happy. Then we set the table for dinner. LOTS of candles. It looked really nice =) And it was really pretty being able to see his pool too. His back yard looks very nice. We ate dinner and took pictures. I love how he'll kiss me whenever he feels like it. First thing in the morning when we got to fall asleep and wake up together he kissed me. When my mouth is full of food, he will kiss me. Its the cutest thing ever. We ate dinner and talked. A very nice dinner. After we cleaned up, we went back the the house he waters to have more alone time. We held each other and listened to music. I'm so grateful for the things he's done for me and for the way he makes me feel. He loves me with everything that he is and does whatever he can for me. He opened the gift I made for him which was a heart that I sewed and stuffed for him and a cd that I customized for him, which is the picture provided =) Then we went back to his house and we ate frozen chocolate covered strawberries. Yumm. The hard part was saying goodbye. I start crying most of the time. Its so hard to get into the car and leave the person you're in love with. It's so hard to walk away from someone who makes you out of this world happy. Its hard to walk away from the guy who thinks that you are the most beautiful thing in the world. When I'm with brandon I'm so happy. I feel like I don't have a care in the world. He makes me the center of his universe and it overwhelms me with love for him. He takes care of me and he is there for me when I need him. He loves me regardless of what I look like or how strange I am. I didn't think anyone would love me like he does and it was a miracle that God gave him to me. I love him with all of my heart and it only gets stronger. We have our weak points but they are nothing compared to what we get from each other in return. Whether we stay together forever or not, I wouldn't trade the times we've spent together for anything.

Chicken Fajitas

This is for dinner tonight! Yes, that is a picture of the chicken fajitas that i'm making. Yes the food I cook won't kill anyone. My tastebuds are excited. On the side we are having mexican rice!

All I Ask of You

I'm pretty sappy. I love and take in any romance. It can't get any more sappy than this but I really love this song. Its so beautiful and true. When I get married, this is how I should feel about my husband. This is how we should feel about each other. Its so mushy but oh so beauuuutifull. This song is so soothing and peaceful. It makes me feel happy. Lyrics first then video.



Raoul:
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you - my words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...

Christine:
Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you now and always...
Promise me that all you say is true -
that's all I ask of you...

Raoul:
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you -
your fears are far behind you...

Christine:
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night...
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me...

Raoul:
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime...
let me lead you from your solitude....
Say you need me with you here, beside you...
anywhere you go, let me go too -
Christine, that's all I ask of you...

Christine:
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime...
say the word and I will follow you...

Raoul & Christine:
Share each day with me,
each night,
each morning...

Christine:
Say you love me...

Raoul:
You know I do...

Raul & Christine:
Love me - that's all I ask of you...

Anywhere you go let me go too...
Love me - that's all I ask of you...

Phantom:
I gave you my music...
made your song take wing...
and now how you've repaid me:
denied me and betrayed me...
He was bound to love you when he heard you sing...

Christine...
Christine...

Raoul & Christine:
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime...
say the word and I will follow you...
Share each day with me, each night, each morning...

Bead Dream

So every night when either Brandon or I get too tired to stay online anymore we call each other and talk until we fall asleep. Some nights I might fall asleep before i get a chance to call him or visa versa. The other night while we were talking, I started falling asleep and I did for a few mins. I know I was dreaming because I was doing my math homework and I saw silver beads. On my paper I had been doing the square roots of silver beads and in the middle of the beads were pink sphere things. I was confused and then I heard talking and it was brandon. I came back from my dream and remembered that i was still in my room and talking to Brandon. I like falling asleep to the sound of him sleeping or the sound of his voice. Its soothing for me. It's probably because I love him but the sound of his voice sends me one way or the other. It depends on which angle my mind decides to look at it from. Most days it just makes me ridiculously happy. The sound of his voice makes me smile and really improves my day a lot of the time. But sometimes it just backfires. Sometimes I hear his voice and my chest starts aching. Sometimes when I hear his voice I imagine the way his face would look when he says certain things or when he laughs. It makes me miss even more than I already do and I start to cry. It goes both ways but when it goes the wrong way his voice is there to make me feel better. Some nights when I cry because I miss him he'll make sure he is awake until I feel better. I didn't think any guy in the world would ever do for me the things he does and for that I love him.

Storm Dream

I had a really strange dream again. Surprised? Didn't think so. I was in an upstairs apartment. It was marissa's apartment. This was an extra weird dream because marissa had to be watched at all times. It was for her own good apparently. She had an obsession with sex toys. She didn't use them. But she was obsessed with collecting them. She had to be watched and we had to search her apartment to make sure she didn't buy any new ones. I went into her bedroom while she was in the kitchen making us some dinner. I don't know who was with me. Another girl. A friend I suppose. She went looking somewhere else while i was in marissa's bedroom. I looked in her dresser which looked exactly like my mom's. It was weird. I dug deep into it and found a toy. I looked closer at it and was relieved because it was a dog toy. Yay! We ate dinner and watched tv and then we had to go somewhere. I don't know why. It was kind of like a golfcart truck except that there was no cover. I got into the trunk and as she started to drive away down the drive way there was a dog tied up in front of the downstairs apartment. Its neck was so weird and it was nudging its head against the pole. Its neck craned over like a bird. I dont' know why. It was adorable though. I called it and it ran up to the truck as it was driving away and hopped into the back with me. I said to marissa, "I'm going to steal this dog." And as i started changing its collar she said, "It likes to nudge its head against the pole like that. I don't know why." Then all of a sudden we were stuck in a store. All of the walls were glass so we could see outside. We were stuck in a furniture store. It started to rain. A storm was starting. I stood at the glass wall and put my hands on it and water started leaking under the walls. I started to panic. Then me and other people got onto some mattresses and I don't know if they can float in real life but they started to float. Eddie was on the same mattress as me with a lot of other people. We were all starting to panic because water kept coming in and in and the storm was getting worse. I yelled at eddie to break the glass on the wall and he looked at me like i was crazy and he said, "Break the glass?" and i said, "YES eddie break the glass!!" He did it and we all floated out. It was really weird. We all got off the mattress and looked up and saw a big hole in the sky and the storm was coming out of the hole. It was the weirdest thing i've ever seen. And thats it.

Rant

This is me ranting. I can't say anything around my mom without her thinking I'm giving her an attitude or trying to be smart recently. She goes on and on about how our family is in a financial crisis and that I need to find a job to help support the family. Like its a responsibility of mine. I'm trying. I really am.

BULL CRAPPPPPP about being in a financial crisis. IF we were in such a financial crisis then WHY did you buy the new mac this summer?? Its well over a few thousand dollars. You and dad make over 100,000 a YEARRRRR. IN ONE YEAR!!! Thats roughly 8-9,000 dollars a MONTH. Where does it all gooo?!??!?! I'Ll tell you where it goes. My mom! She DOES work hard. I understand. But for her to spend all of the money that she gets to the point where she THINKS we are in a financial crisis and then come complaining to ME about how i need to get a job and help out doesn't seem reasonable. Why can't I tell her any of this? Because she will kick me out. And i really really hate to say it but I can't afford to move out on so many levels. UGHHH!!!

Also!!! Explain to me how its fair that you spent around 500 dollars on catie this last weekend for her homecoming stuff and you are telling me that we are in a financial crisis?!?! what the hell mom! AND If you can spend that much on catie without her even asking, then how come when I have 25 dollars to spare I can't go and visit my boyfriend that I haven't seen in over a month? I spent an our and a half with him yesterday and I had to sneak it because you won't let me go. Even if i have the money to see him I can't go until I find a job. How is that fucking fair??? I can't use MY OWN money to go see my boyfriend and you are spending 500 dollars on her homecoming and you are telling me that we are in a fucking financial crisis. I hate asking you guys for money. I really do. Because then I owe you guys something.

Oh btw I just spent 2 and a half hours cooking this dinner for the family and judith. Especially for judith becuase I know she's vegetarian. And you call me to tell me that you can't make it for dinner because you are going to get catie's nails done. And you go out and buy food instead. I made really good potatoes =( and I made pumpkin bread and vegetables....and you aren't going to eat it and you won't let me be with my boyfriend who I'm miserable without and you make me feel bad for everything I do like i'm useless. I'm just the outlet child. I can handle your crap so you give it all to me. Its not fair! I do more for this family than you think and I can never argue back because you're already right even before I begin talking.
I hate this!

Most of the time I just deal with your crap. But it hurts. This kind of thing hurts sometimes. I really hate going to girl scouts but I go anyway. To help grama and help supervise the girls and give rides to three other girls..

Where's the thanks

Cooking!

So about a year ago I started cooking dinner for the family a lot of the time. I did everything I knew how to make and I quickly ran out of different meals to make! I didn't want to bore my family with the same meals over and over again and so I started to experiment and test out new things here and there. I've learned a few things by doing so.

1.) I really do enjoy cooking. I may not pursue it or anything but I really enjoy it.
2.) I'm not half bad at cooking. I have been making some pretty kick ass meals =) It makes me pretty excited. There are a few things I've learned how to cook pretty well too.
3.) I will always like what we have for dinner because you tend to have a certain fondness for the things you create. Don't know why. I think its apart of being human.

So! There you have it. And today is a little special because I'm going to try something new today! HOMEMADE cheesy scalloped potatoes =) I LOVE scalloped potatoes! I've made them from the box but today is a new day and I'm going to make them from scratch today! Wish me luck.

Dream

I had another weirdo dream. I was at OLP for a science camp. Pff. And there were about 50-100 people in the class. Some people from st. pius were there too. I sat in the back of the classroom and our first assignment was to make our own water squishy. Those ones where you hold it and it will slide right out of your hand because it inverts into itself like a black hole and it just keeps going and going. I couldn't find a picture. I will try later. Anyway, we had to design our own and the teacher liked mine the best because I put lots of colors in mine and everyone else just put blue and one other color. Mine was kinda big for some reason too. So class was over after we turned in the squishies. The teacher in return gave us scrolls. They were important for some reason. I put mine in my drawer under my desk and locked it with a key I had. I went outside then and i drove my big black USV around to circle drive. Rachel Equia and Natalie augilera were standing there washing another car. They came up to me after I got out of the car and said, "You look different." And I said, "Ya I do." They both said it like three more times when all of a sudden stephanie tumbaga and agnes and some other random girls ran up to me and said, "Where are the scrolls????!!!" They needed them for some kind of contest. And I said, "I put mine in my drawer. Did you check there?" And then they ran off to find the scrolls. Then i was in front of an apartment complex for some reason. I was wearing my olp uniform and I walked past one side of it looking up. And jack johnson was on the second level playing his guitar with some people. He looked down at me and smiled and said, "Come here!!" And i was so excited and I couldn't believe that he wanted me to go up to him. So I started running toward the stairs but they were on the other side of the complex. Catie was with me then. She ran with my and when we got upstairs, the second floor was WAY bigger than we thought it was. It was MASSIVE. There were wearhouses all over the place. And I said, "Catie we HAVE to get to the other side of the complex.." And she said, "I KNOW! We can do this!" So we ran through big gray rooms and back around some rooms. Its hard to explain what these rooms looked like. Then Catie had to go to the bathroom. So we ran into a guard and we asked him where the bathrooms were. He said they were around the corner and so we ran to the bathrooms and the bathroom was HUGEEE!! It was like as big as a department store and there were rows and rows of stalls. It was so weird. I decided I would go while we were there. When she finished, we ran some more and we got to this HUGE tent. It was bright pink and some how fit on the little sidewalk in front of the apartment. We went in and Jack Johnson was sitting at a table singing some stuff and hanging out with a lotta people. He had saved me and catie a spot and we sat next to him and he said, "Hi! You made it! How are youu?" And we talked for awhile and i couldn't believe I was meeting him even though I don't listen to too much of his music. I said, "I have a friend who is a HUGE fan of yours." and he said, "Oh really? Invite him over!" And I callled eddie and invited him over and he got over really fast and I gave up my seat so that he could talk to Jack. He started crying! hahahahha. And they talked for a bit and then all of a sudden I was looking out my wooden doors connecting to the patio and Jack johnson pulled up in front of my house in eddie's car. Weird. The End.

I wish I knew what my dreams meant...

Chem test Monday

So this is me procrastinating on studying for my chemistry test. I'm so drained. Not much to say i guess. I really need something to cheer me up. I feel like yuck. I hope this will go away soon. Sleeping helps because then I don't have to think about any of it. On the brighter side! I've lost another pound O: yay. Kay. Home work time. p.s. this was one of the creepiest adds i've ever seen.

From Friday to Sunday

This one is going to be a long one. I'm going to try and remember every single thing I did until sunday starting from friday. Woke up around 8:15. I got dressed in that stupid job hunting dress. Made myself look sharp I guess cause I had that stupid interview. I wore the nice shoes but brought the boots to change into for lab. I had some yogurt for breakfast and said bye to mom and went to school. Got there. Found a parking spot. walked to my chem room. I sat in my usual spot and listened to the boring lecture. After class I went up to RJ and talked to him for a bit. I was going to have him show my pre-lab to the teacher for me because my interview was at 11 and thats when lab starts. He was sick though and didn't go to lab that day. I told him to feel better and went up to the teacher and had her check off my pre-lab. Went back to my car and drove to plaza bonita. Double checked my makeup and hair and went down to the grill to wait for my interview. waited for awhile with three other guys to be interviewed. Talked to one of the guys. He said that the manager was hardcore and he had a friend who did the interview the day before and only lasted for 2 mins. That made me nervous. Sure enough the manager came out and was kind of scary. The first guy only lasted a few mins and the second guy longer than that. I had my interview. Not sure how I did and then the last guy went. I hurried back to my car to get back to lab. They hadn't started it yet. I was so lucky. I put my boots on and my goggles and lab coat. RJ was sick so i was partners with this asian lady. She was really funny. We did all of the reactions. Wrote down our observations. Cleaned up. Went to my chiropractor appointment and then went home. Made dinner. Ate it with catie while watching tv. Then we went to the library at my school so I could use the textbook. The library was closed so we went to the student union and sat in there for a bit. I talked to brandon online while catie did homework. Andrew called and told me about how scary paranormal activity was. I gave the phone to catie and they talked for awhile. Catie made arrangements for all of us to go to the movie that night. Talked to brandon some more. Went home. Watched some tv and talked to brandon. Got ready for the movies and left to pick up andrew then eddie. We drove to the theater. Got crappy seats hahah. Watched the movie. It was pretty intense. Drove andrew and eddie home. Went home and went into Catie's room. fell asleep for like an hour. Woke up around three fifteen. Freaked out. Tried to get catie to wake up with me. Failed at that. Watched some youtube videos. Wasn't Helping. Tried watching prince caspian. Didn't work. Called brandon. He was asleep. Called eddie. He told me ways he falls asleep for about an hour. My mom woke up and made me hang up. I brought muffin in to sleep with me. My mom prayed and sat there while I feel asleep with muffin. Woke up around 11. Put stuff on the patio away. Went to the library with catie for a bit. Came home and watched tv and did some more hw. Waited until midnight to leave brandon a happy anniversary message. Went to sleep. Woke up for mass. Went to church in the morning. Came home and had lunch and then went to the fall festival with catie and my mom and dominic. Me and catie looked in granny's attic for abit. We walked around and then andrew called and so we were going to go pick him up. We ran into miguel and talked to him for awhile. Went to pick up andrew. Came back to the festival. I ran into annalee and brenden and talked to them for awhile. Looked around and had food. Talked to tom for a bit. Talked to rosie and veronica. Ran into miguel and talked to him again. Said hi to fletcher and pet his pitbull which looks exactly like eddie. Ate more food and looked in granny's attic again. I bought a tv for 4 bucks. Went to say hi to grama in the pie shop and bought a piece of chocolate cream pie. Watched the dancers for a bit. Went to the face painting place and we all painted on each other. Cleaned up and went home. I then worked on hw and moped because i couldn't be with brandon on our anniversary. Miserable without him. the end

Good Morning Starshine

This video was deleted awhile back by some poopnugget and I found it again!! Happiness. I never get tired of it. Its SUPERB. Thank you serena ryder!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WElzyLtnNnU&feature=related

Just Sitting Here/Interview

I'm in the library at school. I was planning on taking these two hours and 30 mins to work on the study guides i have to do. BUT someone else checked out the text book D: This reallyyy sucksss. I'm going to have to be here like all day tomorrow. I wish i had brought my chem or something so I could at least try. Catie is online though! I'm glad she had vacation today.

I had the craziest dream, but I forgot what it was about. I'm going to sit here and see if i can remember.

GUH NOTHING! It was sooo weird too. I remember thinking about it when I woke up. I should have written it down or something.

AHHH BREAKING NEWSS I WAS RECIEVING A CALL AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHO IT WAS AND I'M IN THE LIBRARY SO I DIDN'T ANSWER AND THEY LEFT A MESSAGE AND IT WAS HIBISCUS GRILL!! AND THEY WANT TO DO AN INTERVIEW TOMORROW AT 11. Ohh maannn I REALLY need this jobbbbbb. I haven't seen brandon in 3 weeks. I just NEED this job. I need to do a good job on this interview and get the job and meh. I'm so happy I got this interview but it doesn't mean i get the job. I've done 3 or 4 interviews and not gotten the job. Oh I neeed this. I'm all worked up now. Ugh. AND I'm kind of nervous to present my chapter of the bhagavad gita. Oh the drama in my puny little life. :3

At least I'm still alive. :)