Dear Dear

At mom's school. Bored. Thought i'd do a little writing writing writing.
Dear iPod,

You may not be the best but you do your job. At the moment, you are entertaining me. I wonder what it feels like to hold music. Oh the metaphors that just ran through my head. The idea of holding music. It sounds comforting. I wish i could hold music. I would be so tempted to eat it. OH to taste music would be amazing. I'm not sure if i would use my time to do anything else. Moving on.

Dear Empty Cans and Bottles,
When one is in need of money you become extremely valuable. I've recently been keeping an eye out. You guys like to hide out in random places. Under desks, on roofs, on the street, in the livers of whales. I'm not Jonah. Just come out. Hiding is no good. Look at it this way. If you stay hidden then you stay there and rot and disinegrate alone. If you come with me, you get to go with a bunch of friends into a bag, which is basically a party. Then! you get to be taken to the recycling center and compressed with your friends and sent away to a place where they clean you up, re-melt you, and make you into a nice new bottle again. Doesn't that sound nice? Your fate is in your hands. Some of you can't escape so make your decisions wisely.

Dear Dear Dear,
You've become a kind of blog entry for me, where i can write my thoughts out to inanimate objects. Its kind of comforting making my thoughts concrete in this way. Keep em comin and Thank you =)

Dear Missa,
Mermaid

Dear Brandon,
Warm Cookies

Dear Eddie,
Ashley

Dear Caitlin,
Sourpatch Kids

Dear Catie,
Corn

Dear Everyone else,
Pay it Forward

over and out
-mag

Fever Ray

Oh i love Fever Ray. And who ever did this video is seriously a genius. <333333



OH I LOVE THIS. Beautifull <3

IAMX & Imogen Heap

So...I loooveeee Imogen's music. Its amazingg. Beyond amazing. But here's the thing. IAMX is also amazing. Its a weird dark synthetic popie type of thing. But its genius. I downloaded the New Album a few days ago 'Kingdom of Welcome Addiction' and its SUPERB. Beautiful and psychotic. Its truly amazing. I discovered a very sweet surprise while listening to the new album. Track number four is called 'My Secret Friend'. And guess what? I had no one to freak out about it to. I don't know anyone else who likes IAMX as much as I do besides Fraser and he doesn't like Imogen Heap, which left me to freak out on my own.

Guess WHATT???

WHAT?

IAMX FEATURES IMOGEN HEAP IN A SONG ON THEIR NEW ALBUM!!!!!!

Omg....REALLY??!

YESS!!!! Its AMAZINGG!!! And the PERFECT combination because you love Imogen Heap AND IAMX!!!!

I KNOOWW RIGHT?? OMG Mussttt listeennn.....!!!!!

so there you go. Nature of Inviting is also pretty amazing. Chris and Imogen sound like angels singing together in My Secret Friend though. OH its just lovely.

peace
-mag

Bella and Tara

A story I saw on Oprah that truly truly touched me. Its so beautiful.

http://www.oprah.com/media/20090416-tows-tarra-bella

Keane Concert

Okay. I'm in my second to last history class. After this one, there's one more left and then the final. I'm going to take this opportunity to talk about my Keane experience. It was far beyond words.

So we got there it was beauuufitull. It was smei-fancy looking and twice the size of soma. The carpet was blue and there were three levels that you could stand on. We stood on the lowest one of course. After we bought stuff, (I bought a shirt and a poster), we went to the middle level. We found out then that we could go even closer to the lowest level so we did that. I wanted to be as close as possible to the band i've been in love with for six years. I couldn't get over how close we were. We were like 15 feet from the stage and i can remember struggling to get within 30 feet uncomfortably to mathew from muse. We stood for the loongest time. around 7:30 the first opening band played, Helio Sequence. They were sooooo goooodd. I was only anxious and kind of annoyed because i was itchy to see Keane, but Helio was amazing. I'm deff gonna buy some of their music. The second guy was matt and he sounded exactly like Christ Martin from Coldplay. He wasn't as good as the first band but he was still really really good. The lights were variations of blue and purple and were constantly moving. It was soo pretty. The opening bands took TWO hours. TWO. It was semi-frustrating. They were lucky that their music was good because i was ready to bust a cap. So my feet were already aching like crazy and my legs hurt and i was nervous and anxious and i wanted to see keane already. And then out of nowhere they were walking out and everyone was going crazy. I don't know if crazy was a good enough word for how i reacted.

Wait hold on. Teacher is catching my attention for freaking once.

Okay false alarm. He's talking about the border. Like I've never heard about that before.....pff.

So i saw the four of them walking on and i could NOT contain myself. I started shaking and screaming like a pathetic groupie who's life revolved around worshiping them. Only my musical life revolves around them of course along with other music. Muse and Keane were competing in my stats for awhile but Keane pulled through. I was in shock as Tom Chaplin walked up to the mic and smiled at all of us. Tim took the piano of course. Jesse, a substitute for a computer they used to use, took the bass and richard the drums. The background light was a rich rich blue and brought out the blue triangles in the blue bakcdrop they had. The backdrop was the pattern that they have on the cover of Perfect Symmetry. Tom was wearing a salmon colored shirt and a blue jacket, both of which fit him very nicely. Jesse was wearing a pick shirt with some words on it. I can't remember what it said. Richard was wearing a pink shirt too and Tim was wearing a yellow shirt. They were all wearing black jeans. All amazing. This all happened within like 3 seconds because they dove right into The Lovers Are Losing. I was acting like a freaking hippy, but i didn't care. I was singing and dancing (embarrassment) and tears escaped me during the first song. They eventually disappeared but out of happiness. I couldn't stop smiling or looking at them. Tom's haircut was perfecttt. Beyond perfect. They were all much more gorgeous in person, especially Tom. They played song after song and the quality of it was AMAZINGGG. I could hear the music and his voice distinctly and clearly. The way Tom moved on stage was just pricelesss. It wasn't dancing but it wasn't walking either. It was like he invented his own type of movement. It was amazing. He played the piano once and Your Eyes Open on the guitar alone and the rest of the time he sang. The times that he talked to the audience he was sooo sweet and outgoing and welcoming. He smiled the whole time. It was like he was as happy as we were to see him. His voice was AMAZING. Liquid pleasure to my ears and soul. Around the middle of the concert i wanted to get his attention so i threw my purple headband onto the stage. He started laughing and he kept looking at it. My heart was going crazy. I was so shocked and happy and alive with the fact that something I did he reacted to. That i influenced even if the smallest, a fraction of his life. He was smiling as he said that someone chucked something onto the stage and that it was purple and he couldn't tell whether it was a headband or something else. I was shaking and screaming...i seriously couldn't control myself. Then he TOUCHED IT and moved it to the space in front of him behind the speaker. Oh i swooooned and shook with happiness. The best part of this was that i caught it on video. Oh the memory shall lie with me forever. The only part that i wish i could take out is my constant screaming....embarrassment. I got videos of some of the songs although they don't even come NEAR to what it was like to be there in person. They ended with Bedshaped one of my favorite songs by them. Tom had us sing some parts of it. Pure Heaven. The peacefulness and the unity that we all had was amazing. Tom connected with us during the whole show. Oh it was so amazing. I totally lost track of time and i didn't notice the muscles in my legs and feet protesting and edging at a riot. I was soooo happy and high of of the music i had just experienced and my voice was pained with scratchyness. I tried to get my headband back but they wouldn't let me onto the stage. Oh well. On our way out we saw people waiting for them to come out and we did the same thing. I was already happy with the concert itself. I felt so gifted to have the opportunity to meet them. Tim came out first. Oh he was sooo nice. So classy and his accent was amazing. I asked him what his favorite color was and we talked about his experience in piano. Amazing. I even got a picture with him swoooon. Then Richard came out along with Jesse. Richard wasn't taking pictures but he was still extreeemly nicee. We got to talk to him too. He had smiley faces on his drumsticks haha. Then we talked to jesse and we talked about the shirt he was wearing and where he buys his clothes en stuff. Loved it. I got a picture with him too. Jesse, Richard, and Tim all signed my poster. Then TOM CAME OUT. Ohh jeeez. I was stalking him while he was talking to the other people. I got a little video of that. I had to wait my turn. BUT unfortunately his manager was getting upset because they had to leave and just as he got to us he was pulled away. I was lucky to get into a blurry picture with him as he was trying to take more than one picture at once. It was unlucky but i was unable to find myself sad. I was happy that i got to be so close to him. He was standing only a few inches from me. I was happy with that. The fact that we didn't get his signature or get a clear picture with him doesn't bother me. I'm glad. I would hate to dwell over it and get angry.

The night was sooo amazing. So many years i've been listening to their music. So many times i've put sunshine or any other of their songs on repeat. So many times i've listened to them and took their music into the deepest parts of my heart and soul. IT was one of the most amazing nights of my life, and i plan on seeing them again sometime. Its worth almost any amount of money. Amazing.

-mag

Just Killing Lobsters

Dear Dear

So Brandon's internet wouldn't work today. bleh. I was re reading things he's sent me and he sent me this on my birthday. I never get tired of reading it. I feel like i don't deserve someone like this but somehow i ended up with someone who loves me like this.

"I love you soo much and I am glad that you love me. I'm sorry I can't be there with you for your birthday so you could kiss me, touch me, and express your love how you want to, I want to be there with you and spend every possible second with you... You mean more than everything and anything to me. And I can't tell you how much I love you because words cannot describe. You are the best thing that has happened to me in a long time and I love you and I am happy that you love me, and you are my heartbeat, the reason why I live. You are the only person I have loved like this and I don't know what life would've been like without you. You are the most beautiful person I know of and I am lucky to have you because you complete me. You are PERFECT to me in every possible way, and I want to do anything for you... although I can't give you the stars, or the moon, or the sky, or other amazing things in this world, I can give you all of me that I am and all my love, my whole heart... Happy birthday, darling. <3" -Brandon


thank you love <3 I will always remember this.

perfect

Does your life get any more perfect that thiss?!?!??!?!!!

GAHH

Annoying people from history...

Rawr. In history again....

cannot express how boring this class is. He thinks i'm taking notes.
This class is the trash in the trash can.
The distance between me and Brandon.
The money I owe for my speeding ticket.
The spit of a turtle.
The urine of the giraffe.

Anyway. You get the point.
Our teacher is asking us what an American is.
rahhh
annoying girl responded, "Fat over weight white man..."
Okay firstly, she is over weight too...
Secondly, she repeated the word fat by saying overweight. Its like saying look at that skinny thin girl. oh these people. I have my moments too but these people are killing me.

The annoying people are sooo annoyingg...
HAHA I just made one of the annoying guys mad. Sooo funny. Soooo worth like a dollar.
All of the annoying people were ALL talking at once. They always do. Drives me crazy. I'm sure it drives other people crazy too. So i blurted out, "HOW ABOUT EVERYONE RAISES THERE HAND WHEN YOU WANT TO SAY SOMETHING."
hahahhaahaa pure silence and then the teacher says "Yes!" and he points at me and says, "That is a very good idea magdalena." hahahhahahah then one of the annoying guys says, "Butting in isn't raising your hand either." What was i supposed to do?? Wait for them to finally shutup and ask them kindly to raise their hand?? I needed to say that when they were in the act. While they were commiting the crime!

woop woop i got teacher points AND made the annoying peple angry. two cocaroaches with one foot.

oh man. Thats the most action i've gotten in history all semester.

So I'm basically typing everything I'm thinking except that i think faster than i type so I don't get to type everything i'm thinking. Just some of it.

I'm surprised that Oprah hasn't had obama on her show yet.
ahh I'm freeezing. The AC is going crazy in here.

I wonder how long a human being could last without food. I need to look that up. Cuuurrious.

Daydreaming....Its very distracting. I was kinda half asleep too but my eyes were open.

Yesterday I successfully made it to LA and back without getting caught. I coudln't tell anyone of course. Brandon snuck me in and we watched a movie. It was nice to escape home and school for awhile. I wonder when i'll get to see him again...
Its 10:30....fifteen more mins. I can do thissss. I think i might be getting taller again. I'm appearing more skinny than usual yet i weigh the same. I like the idea of a 5'5 mag. I'm crossing my fingers.

I need to apply for schools in the fall. I'm scared. But i want to get out of southwester. Its a prison in so many cruel wayss. gahh. I'm all stressed now. I can't find a fucking jobb. =( I broke down and sobbed my eyes out about it last week. The panic and stress that i felt was so immense and painful. If I don't find a job by May 1st, then we have to cut esthela's hours because we won't be able to afford it anymore. It kinda makes me feel like its my fault....i hate it. I think I'm going to apply at seaworld and call it a day. They better fucking hire me. I'm freaking out here.

Okay. Class is done in 5 mins. I'm gonna save and close up.
bye

I Put Splenda in my Wine

(another blog i wrote in my boring history classss...also i put splenda my wine. I feel like that says a lot about me for some reason. And one last thing, I'm going to be blunt and just say it. Wine makes me horny. Every time i drink it i get turned on. Its so yummyy though. Anyway thats that)

yay another blog i wrote in history.

Soo hotttt. I'm excited to swim today. Its going to feel very nice. This class is so boring. There are a lot of annoying people in here. Annoying person number one would be the girl front...she just talks without raising her hand. And the tone of her voice is like: I know what i'm talking about so everyone else should just shutup. There are two guys like that that sit in the back. So sometimes i'm listening to three people all talking at once.....gaahh i hate this class. I'm doing surprisingly well though.

So the funniest thing in the world happened last night. Of course it involves Catie because she is the funniest person I know. I was up late talking to Brandon and eddie and she stalks into the kitchen extremely angry and she says, "Your internet still works?!" I responded with a yes and why. She says that netnanny cut her off at midnight from the home computer. I was cracking up.

I think we are going to watch a movie....disney???
dang he turned it off.....

Stuffss

Bah. I have a headacheeeeee...

This history class is so boring. I still have 53 mins left of this class. At leas it looks like i'm taking notes.
Oh man his handwriting looks atrocious. I can hardly read it. I have so much homework to do tonight. I have a five page paper to write, i have to study for a midterm i have tomorrow, and I have to put another paper together that we have to do about homeless people. The people in my group sent me their stuff.

I think I'm going to fall asleep. We'll see what happens. I'm soo tired....

What the hell did i type 'we'll see what happens.' Whyyy????

My mom found microsoft word for my computer. I'm excited to put it on my computer. I want to back everything up though just incase.

I have to do so many things for Catie's party. I need to make a listttt...like now.

1.) make sign for wall - I need to make a huge sign that says catie so that i can put it on the wall later.
2.) I need to invite more people.
3.) blow up more balloons. rawr
4.) make more of those streamer thingys.
5.) clean like there's no tomorrow.


And the thing is. I can't start on any of this tonight because i really have to do that school work. I hope i don't fail my american civ class. We have only done two quizzes and one midterm. I bombed the quizzes and i dont think i did so great on the midterm.

I really hope catie likes her party. I invited a lot of people that she used to love to hang out with. Diane is coming, Andrew is coming, hopefully nora. I'm pretty sure Catie has no clue about the party. This is a good thing. This is when my lying skills are handy. My mom is actually a pretty good liar too. Kudos mom, Kudos.

bah I'm kinda stressed right now, now that i think about it.

i'm all twitchy and worrysome. Let me make a list of people that i think/know are coming.

1. me
2. dad
3. dominic
4. mom
5. tom
6.veronica
7. veronica's boyfriend
8. eddie
9. tess
10. raf
11. tom
12. rosie
13. andrew
14.nora
15. diane
16 roseanita
17. Aunt susie
Okay those are the people that i'm 99% sure are coming. Now here are the potential i hope they will come people.
18. Mary jean
19. Janine
20. George
21. Willie
22. Willie's girlfriend
23. Judith

Poop.. I need to invite more people. gawrarawrrgarrrr

We should play games....hmmm.

ahh 15 more mins. I am so tireddddd... I want to be with Brandon =( I miss him so much. Its driving me insane. blehh

12 mins....I'm doing pretty good in this class. I cant say the same for my other history class though. blahhh I'm just trying to kill time here. 11 mins left.

W ho else could i invite? I can't think of anyone. hmmmmmm

O: I should invite maarielllll....

The girl in the girl has a PC and it looks really grossss....

Sitting in History...

I'm doing pretty well in this history class.

i got an 85 on the midtem. He prolly thinks i'm taking notes but really i'm writing a blog entry for later. AND i dont have microsoft word so i have to use the ghetto text edit application to type any text haha

omg! Eddie got keane tickets..i dont think that i've fully comprehended that i'm going. I'm so excited.

Last night catie and i went to petco to get some gold fish. They were SO cheap!! they are like 13 cents a piece. A piece lmao...i mean.. They are like 13 cents per fish!!

Anyway. So we wanted to get a LOT. At least 10 gold fish. But the guy wouldnt let us. He recommended that 4 was a good amount for the size of our tank. He insisted that we dont get more than that. So instead of causing trouble, Catie and I cheated and went to walmart to get more fish after petco haha.
We also got another suckerfish. He is sooo tiny compared to Remora. I named him Remora Jr. :3 He is a cute patootie.

So i finally learned how to put in tampoonies the right way. I don't even feel it when its in anymore. I HAD to start using them for swim but i think i will stick to using them for next time. They are cleaner.

I can feel my wisdom tooth coming in the back. I'm going to get them removed at some point. But i want Brandon to be there. Not there while i'm getting my teeth removed but afterwards. I know i will feel miserable when i'm done. I'm going to want to snuggle with him and watch movies or something. It will definitely help...

I get that feeling whenever i feel miserable. I always feel like the cure would be being in the arms of Brandon under some blankets and watching some movies or something.

Okay so recently Andrew and i discovered that we both have the same break on mon/wed/fri so we have been hanging out in the library and so that the people near us couldn't hear we were typing some of it. I added some side notes to make it more comprehendible. Side notes are in parentheses. I also added names so that later when i read this, i will know who typed what. Here goes:


Me: (the guy across from us was really old and asian) he wants to learn how to play some b ball

Andrew: he thinks you can learn ANYTHING through reading. i bet he learned how to make out using a book about it. those two girls sitting next to eachother thought it was twin day.

Me: twin goth day* i like this song ( we were listening to a song on my laptop)

Andrew: it's called haemog- (he stopped typing because he realized the name of the song was obviously on the laptop hahah)

Me: the guy in the far back looks egyptian

Andrew have you ever watched "the mummy"? it's imhotep.

Me: with a pepsi one....(He had a pepsi)

Andrew: i heard it has only one calorie

Me: (writing about something this other guy we knew said.) Richard: Is it true that diet root beer has NO calories??

ANDREW: the eye of a werewolf. the tears of a gypsy. the breath of a vampire.

Me: (a bunch of people walked by carrying plastic bagsss) tourists

Andrew: (looking at a guy posing weird) he wants to be america's next top model

Me: his shoes match his shorts....they look like they were made out of carpet

Andrew: (looking at a ganster black guy) i can't tell if he's a blood or a crips

Me: hes in both

Andrew: catie has met her match
( looking at two more black people at another table) the guy who just sat down is caramel-colored. coffe with cream, the guy who just walked by said to him: coffee is good with cream but better when it's black

Me: i'm sorry andrew...did you WANT to get shot??

Andrew: no he's intellectual.

Me: ohh...okaayyy

Andrew: he's a non-violent black, the opposite of catie.


END

hahaa so we talked a lot too but thats the stuff we couldnt say out loud i guess.

Last night i was soooo tireeddd and catie kept snoring and i couldnt sleep because of it. After awhile i got frustrated and stopped trying. i started crying and my mom heard me and she let me sleep out in my room. It was so nice out there. I had my little heater and it was nice and quiet. I only woke up like twice in the middle of the night =) that has to be a record. I wake up like once an hour when i sleep in the house. I hate being a light sleeper. I fall asleep to movies a lot but i feel like its a different kinda noise than snoring. I put on the movie really quiet too.


blehh we have 20 mins left of this stupid class.

OH YA
I saw the coolest thing like 15 mins ago when i went to take a pee break. So this lady in the back is typing on her phone O: !!! She bought a keyboard that hooks up to her phone. How cool is that?!?! And its not super big like a normal keyboard. I wanna say its like 8 inches wide and a few inches tall. So big enough to type easy and small enough to look super duper cool. So i guess she is typing and saving it on her phone. It had a little stand so that her phone stands up right so she can see what she is typing. I cant stop glancing over my shoulder to look at it. She prolly thinks i'm going to stalk her. hahaa or am i....dun dun dunnnn hahaa...but rreally....hahaha okay i'm done.

See?? this is what the history class does to me. 17 more mins.

poops. Brandon stopped texting me. I guess he switched classes or something. hahaha the asian guy in the front is bobbing his head cause he is falling asleep. Aw poor guy...he looks so tired. I dont know his whole story though. hmmm

omg! I should copy and paste some surveys into text edit later so that i can fill out surveys during this class or something.

13 mins left...i can do this...
breathe....breathe...breathe...
ooo on the bad girls club yesterday, alea (sp?) ad whitney went home.
Alea - i dont like her at ALL she is such a hypocrite and a jerk. She deserved it.
Whitney deserved it too. She is a HUUGE hypocrite. They showed it in the show too. She was yelling and screaming about how in boston you dont hit with a shoe. How you use your fist cause thats how they do in boston. She was yelling about this for like 5 mins. it was crazy. And while she was yelling they showed clips from past episodes where she used her shoe to defend herself HAHAHA what an idiot. She and her family will have fun watching that at home. I really want sarah to go home. She is a beeeyotchh and a whoooree....

10 minss 10 minss...

uh oh. he has our essays. I wrote mine in an hour. I hope i did okay.
Alright. Well i'm out i guess. bye bye =)

-mag

Dont Be Shalloww

There is something i want to address specifically this time and that is shallowness in terms of the way people look.

For school I dont talk to many people because people hardly talk to each other here at all. Every now and then though, I run into a friendly Person. Another thing, since i dont talk to many people at all here at school i dont try at all with my appearance. Often times i will come in my pj's or random t-shirts i dont like because I just really dont care...I'll come with my hair unbrushed and sometimes in slippers. I figure, no one is going to talk to me anyway so why even bother.

In my comparative history of the americas class, I sat next to this guy. I dont even know what his name is. Lets call himmmm john. So so i sat next to john and i have been sitting next to him for the whole semester so far. We started talking en stuff and passing notes during class. This class is SUPER boring so it was nice to have someone to communicate with. this lasted for about a month.

He then realized that the girl behind me is waaaayy prettier than i am. She went up to the board this one time and she has the nicest butt i have ever seen. I could get anything i want with a butt like hers. Anyway, so she is reallly really pretty. She is tall and has long hair plus the butt thing. I used to go to school with her ironically. Her sister was in my sisters class. So he realized how much more pretty she is than i am and stopped talking to me. I havent heard a word from him in a few weeks. He sits in his chair farther back so that he can chat with the girl behind me more. He doesnt even look at me anymore...this saddens me.

Lets get some thing straight though:
I DO NOT have any sort of crush on him physically OR romantically. He is quite unattractive actually. He fills his hair with gel, his breathe stinks, he talks too loud, and he has a mole on his cheek.

Why am I sad that he doesnt talk to me anymore? :
Its nice to have someone to talk to at school every now and then. School is usually hours of boringness and being alone. Both of which i hate. To have someone to chat with twice a week during school hours was kinda nice.

So then comes up the whole shallow thing. Whenever he is talking to her I think: I guess if i was as pretty or prettier than her, then maybe he'd be talking to me. Heck, maybe i would have friends here if i was prettier.

Of COURSE there are attractive people. OF COURSE some people are prettier than others. Some people are hot and some people are not and some are in between. Go ahead and acknowledge it. There is nothing wrong with noticing how attractive someone is. There is nothing wrong with telling someone that you are attracted to them physically. Nothing. My point is completely beside that.

My message to the world is, you can acknowledge the beautifulness of people but dont treat them any different than you would treat the unattractive people. You should treat mostly everyone the same. Everyone should be treated the same. Love someone you think is unattractive as much as the most beautiful person in the world. Making it harder for uglier people to gain attention or love is just wrong.

God doesnt let beautiful people into heaven easier than he lets ugly people.

from the deep thoughts of mag's soul...

-magg

brandon

Brandon wrote this for me. I dont understand how lucky i got to run into him or how God was generous enough to give someone like him to me. I dont deserve him... it scares me but it only makes me appreciate and love him even more.


Every single second, every minute of the day
Even those moments when you are near or away
I’m always thinking only of you and imagining your touch
Thinking of a way to prove to you how I love you so much.

When I am away and you need me near
You have to remember I will always be here
For inside our hearts where no one can see
I am with you and you are with me.

I love you more than anything and everything <3

Imogen Heap

She most defff is a gift to music. She continues to amaze me ....



woow... she just blows my mind.

Thoughts sitting in history...

I'm tired. this class is boring. Its been like the only thing i've been posting on my blog though. So right now he is talking about some guy in history that hit another important guy in history with his cane and it broke. Later some merchants bought him another cane that was inscribed with the words, 'Hit him again'. hahahaa thats some good stuff right there.

I got some people to come to catie's party. I need more though. A lot more. woah abe lincoln wasnt so great looking. hahaa.
hahahai thought i was bored...the girl in the front is on her laptop too and she has text highlighted and she is going through her fonts one by one.

I'm kinda of embarrassed at our civil war because we had just become a new country and then we go and kill each other....tsk tsk.
I guess we needed it though. Slavery is bad.

twenty mins left. but i came late so i shouldnt be complaining.

poop. we are getting into our lame-o groups to play a game to get ready for the midterm. peace.

comparitive bloggingg

I wrote this during my history class on thursday....hahaa so i wrote it on theee 5th


so i finished the drawing for fraserr. I'm stuck however for another 30 mins in this stupid history class...

I got new goggles O: for swim...they are green and blue. They were surprisingly cheaper than i thought they were.
New pair of goggles would cost how much?
a) 8.99
b) 6.95
c) 5.96
Answer is at the bottom of the page.

Ooo i know. I can talk about the doctor's. I had a physical this morning because i've been having headaches like everyday and i'm always tired. I'm so ready to take a nap right now. Anyway. There were a few weird things that happened.

First off. I hate needles. scary business....i couldn't look at my arm while she was taking my blood this morning. She kept asking me if i was okay Nice lady. Once i had a nurse who just made fun of me.
"Haha you cant be scared of needles at this age. Be strong. *laughssss*"
Me: "BE STRONG THISSS!!" *karate chop*

she was mean. Anyway. After the nice lady took my blood, she bandaged me up and walked out to get something and i started laughing. I couldnt help it. I just burst out laughing. The inner choirs of happiness just burst out in glorious laughter. The blood part was doneee!!! I felt kinda insane though. I had to compose myself for when the lady came back.

She took my wieght. Apparently i weigh about the same as a baby hippo. Good or no good? or you might die good?

She took my height...and guess what. Mag grew like an inch in the past year. I am 5'4 folks. Watch out world. Tall mag means business....

omgoshes. yesterday, my other history teacher said specific ocean. I was trying to hard not to laugh. I should have said, 'Be more pacific professor luna'

20 mins left. yargh. The girl in the front is such a suckup. She laughs at everything that is potentially funny that our professor says. Her laugh sounds like she is hiccuping for air.

I cant wait to go for a two hour swim after this. I didn't go on tuesday cause i was a lazy butt. I had just turned in my 4 page paper. I hated writing that thing. The weird thing is, i sat in front of my computer just distracting myself the night before for like 4 hours. I procrastinated and i just didnt know what to write about. At like 1 i went to sleep having only done one and a half paragraphs of my 4-5 page paper. The next morning i got to school at like 8 and i was finished with it by nine. I even had like 15-20 mins to proofread it. I dunno what happened. I was just on fire that morning or something.

I think it would be cool to write a diary of a princess diaries kinda of person. Only the girl wouldnt be a princess. I could make her like 1/4 something else that is cooler. Hm. Maybe like i dunno...1/4 related to abe lincoln. That doesn't even make any sense.

I'm trying to learn a song on the piano for brandon. I'm doing good so far. I need to be a little faster on some parts but it is enjoyable. At some point I'm going to finish learning claire de lune and fur elise. I know i prolly butchered the spelling of those...

hahahhaa the girl behind me i went to school with. She is whispering to the guy in front of her which is the guy that sits next to me and the tone of her voice sounds like she's having an orgasm. I would hate to have a voice like that. It would be like an invitation to rape me. You could say anything and the rapist wouldnt take you seriously...."No....stop...leave me alone...someone help mee stoooppp" If you heard that coming from a girl who sounds like she is gasming through the whole thing the rapist would be thrilled. He's like, I guess she likes it. I'm a lucky guy.

ten mins ten minssss ten minutes
woah i almost forgot how to spell minutes. It was the weirdest thing ever.

Its kinda like the other day, i was over thinking the word every and its actually a nice sounding word. Its like ivory but a little softer. I would name my girl every. Ev for short. If people thought about it as a name, they would think it was pretty right?

I have to peeeeeep. dang. we still have like 7 mins.

I get to see Brandon on saturday :3 hopefully. if not i guess i can do the garage sale by myself or i could go interview the homeless people on my own. hmmm

oh snap i am huungryy. i wasnt allowed to eat anything 12 hours before the stupid physical this morning. 5 minutes 5 5 5 5 555 5 555 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 55 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5

ooof

I like that word. I like the sound of ooooof. The thing is. Once you add another f, it diess and becomes off. So you have to be careful when typing the word oof.

3 mins. I'm going to pack it up. Peace. I will post this on my blog later.

History class on thurss

Okay. I figured that this keeps me sane in this history class. Its nice to have something to put up on my blog too.

meh last night was a messsss.... and i miss Brandon.

Stupid distance... when i think about it though. At least i have him <3 I don't know what i'd do without him.

ouch...my head hurtsssss.

hahaha most of the people who tried looking for gold in 1849 faaailedd....tsk tsk
I can't get over how young my history teacher is. He can't be over 25 or 26.

I figure if i ask questions he will be accuainted with me and will give me a better grade? He's nice. I mean, there's nothing wrong with him. I failed both quizes though. I do the homework. Hopefully that will compensate. And i have 5 page paper to write yaayy...

la la laaaaaaaaa

I love how demetri says "A mobile hoome with a flat tire is just a hooomeee..."
bahhaa

I'm not writing as much because i'm actually trying to pay attention. I was dying of boredom last class for some reason. Its not so bad today.

I feel like being from a different country makes you cooler. Like the guy in front of me was just a normal mexican but then he told the class that he moved here from chile a few years ago. Now i look at him and think, "Hey. There's that cool guy from chile..."

coolness thumbs up.
I'm going to hire some people to follow me and fan me with palms someday. That would be funny.

Or do that thing that one of my friends did to his freshman. Have him dress up like a pokemon and i can say "Pikachu thunderbolt NOOOWWW!" and he would have to squeeze his little but cheeks together and scrunch his face and and scream PIIKAAAAAA....!!! it would be cooler at night because then he could use real sparks at night to give it more of an effect.

history class over. bye byee

History classsss on Tuesday

I’m in history. Bored. My teacher is really young. I’m thinking he is like our age. Not older than 25 anyway. I would be rich if I got a dollar for every time he said, “For the most part…”

HAHA he just said yosemeti is overrated. Idc though. I still wanna go. And that Sequoia is underrated. Hmmm…

Maybe he is secretly like 18. And a super genius. Maybe secret super geniuses teach at community colleges. Hmm…

I take notes though. Don’t think I’m just sitting here doing nothing. He just hasn’t said anything usefull yet. My mom paid 60 dollars for this class. I’m so sorry mom.

Ooo. Mt. Whitney looks prettys. Its white. Like the white witch from narnia. Woah we have a volcano O:

Now he is showing us pictures of Friscoooo. Bahah. I have been there. A long time ago. But I’ve been there. I wish I was a princess. Mia lived in San Fransisco.
Omg. The annoying girl isn’t here. I just noticed. How exciting. Ooo. Now a picture of San Diego Bay. I wish I got internet here…this is like a random class room that is barely connected to the real campus.

Buzz buzzzz….yay a text message. Lets see who its from. Brandon <3 He misses me. I miss him too =(

Woah death valley pictures. The rock left a trail….strange….they don’t know why. I guess it happens all the time? Its like that pizza episode of sopongebob when he drives the rock to the guys house bahah. I love you spongebob.
Apparently. In about 40 million years, San diego is going to break off and slide on over to Alaska. We better start planning. I don’t want my grandkids to the power of 20 million to be freaking out when the land starts to move to Alaska. Oh gawshh….they are going to turn into Alaskan Eskimos.
Ughh I have a paper to write for this class that is due next Tuesday. And it has to be five pages AND we can’t use the internet. I guess I will have to find some historic scrolls or drawings in caves to base my info off of. I don’t have time to read whole books for that.
He’s said for the most part like 3 times already. 45 mins to go of this class. I have a headache. Oucchh. I’m so tired. I’m always tired. Grrr..
Buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 “Watcha doin?”

Me: “Meh. In history class. Boring my bransies out.”

But I am doing a lot of things like sitting and breathing and listening to my boring history teacher. I’m thinking about other things I’d rather be doing. I’m thinking about you…..

Buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 “Aw I’m sorry”

Me: “Oh well x3”

Omg…I just tried to actually listen to what my teacher was saying. I think a little piece of my brain went BEEP BEEP Beeeeoooooowwwwww……*dead*

Too boring.
I have to save my brain for better things like petting hippos or having donuts with fish. Yes fish love donuts. I am a fish expert.

My teacher has those old people shoes…those ones that rich people like Sherlock wear while smoking a pipe and sitting in a chair next to their fireplace going puff puff puff.

OMG BREAKING REMEMBERING NEWS (meaning breaking news but I knew it from before….its just now that I remembered it): Catie thought Sherlock holmes was a female until yesterday. I was dying.

Buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 (hahaha this one stays secret. I don’t want to embarrass him xP)
That reminds me. Fraser has been starting to text me again. Its been about a year since we’ve really talked. I can’t get over how random it was. He has been recommending movies and such and he wants me to draw him another pictoor….which I still need to get started on. I will probably do that during astronomy tomorrow.

My teacher’s handwriting is atrocious…. Its like his pen is a mini jackhammer that spits out ink onto the board.
Or maybe its like he is trying to write with a pointy rock. I haven’t decided. The guy that sits next to me doesn’t take notes. Haha

I might go to mexico with esthela in may. I’m so excited. I’m kinda scared though. There hasn’t been one day since we’ve been together where we haven’t talked. I make sure I reserve time for him every single day. I feel crummy if I don’t get time with him. When I go to mexico…

Buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 he misses me…

I miss him too bleh…stupid distance.

When I go to mexico I won’t be able to contact him at all. No phone no text no internet. That will be soo hard. I can call him but the long distance will cost so much. I will have to work something out.
I should start dance already. My mom said she would pay for it. And I miss it so much.
21 mins left of class…I’m so tired. Bah

buzz buzz new text…Brandon <3 he can’t stop thinking about me

same goes for me. Not a minute goes by where I’m not thinking about him regardless of what I’m doing.

I wish I could paint a picture with my brain. Maybe I could see how my mind works that way. There are few people that understand how my mind works. Its like they are in the same paragraph of the same page of the same book. In my mind I am counting around 6 people. Hmmmm
I have to peeeee….i always have to pee. I’m going to need to wear a diaper if I ever get preggers. I wouldn’t make it lmao. Why can’t guys get pregger??? Not fair….we are already physically weaker. I don’t see why the stronger gender couldn’t give birth.

So I have a new addition to my amazing smiley faces. Fraser made this one up though. I think its genius.

Clam: (: )

Hahahah

He showed me that after I showed him my walrus (:3)

Ahh i have to pee….brb

Back

Brandon texted me while I was going to the bafroom.

He wants to quit tennis so that he has more time with me….I really don’t deserve the way he treats me. But that means he’s a good boyfriend right?

I always had this gut feeling that I would be a good girlfriend. I think I am. I try as best I can with the distance anyway. He said something to me the other day that I will never forget. I saved it haha. Here it is:

“you are so beautiful. and so perfect in every way. im sorry. i know you dont like me saying that cause you dont think you are. but you really are. extremely attractive. you make me feel better than anything else and nothing can compare to how i feel when i am with you. and i am in fact addicted to you. i never want to let you go.”

Who says things like that?!? Brandon <3 that’s who. And he tells me that I’M the more romantic one….well take a look at that folks. Clap clap clap.
Omg I hate this classsssssssssss…….7 mins.

I typed out about 3 pages of just pouring my thoughts out. Nice mag niceee

So. Coff coff. My weight is at its peak. It has been increasing alarmingly. I hate it. I am trying to do something about it. I’m hoping its muscle weight from swimming? And other things…..? hmmm.

4mins….

Okay..i’m packing it up peeps. This while end up on my blog later.

Nighty night.

Brandon

So over the past six months or so, I've been collecting songs that remind me of Brandon and how I feel about our relationship. I finally got enough songs to put on it and gave it to him on valentines day. Here is the list of songs:
1. Untouched – The Veronicas
2. Everything, All – The Wrong Trousers
3. All Around Me - Flyleaf
4. Starlight - Muse
5. Tell Me What To Do – Metro Station
6. If I Ain’t Got You – Alicia Keys
7. Yellow – Coldplay
8. Closing In – Imogen Heap
9. Love Story – Taylor Swift
10. Soul Meets Body – Death Cab For Cutie
11. Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
12. No Air – Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown
13. Come Here – J. Holiday
14. Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard
15. In My Life – Beatles
16. Bruises - Chairlift
17. All is Full of Love – Bjork
18. Put Your Arms Around Me – Natasha Bedingfield
19. Such Great Heights – Postal Service
20. Come Away With Me - Norah Jones

I meant to bring my ipod with me so that we could listen to them together when I took him to the fountain in balboa park but i forgot.

He's done so much for me and opened my eyes to things i've never felt before. I didn't think my heart could be so full of love. He says and does things for me that i don't deserve. For this and many other reasons I love him. He says sweet thing to me that i will carry in my heart forever. Today he said to me, "Every time i blink i see your face..." The moments I've had with him are better than any movie or song could ever express.
I could type and endless amount on how much he means to me or moments we've had, but i simply wouldn't have the time.
I thank God for bringing someone like him into my life; for being generous enough to give me someone who would so willingly grant me their unconditional love.