THIS IS WHY

I'm mushy. very very very very mushy and hopelessly romantic, which is why i LOVE twilight....and here is a perfect quote to explain about that part of me and about why i read Twilight....enjoy.

"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. very dark, but there were stars- points of light and reason... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddently everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. when you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everythign went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.''

Done...

School is done....thank goodness. I hope to accomplish a lot of things this summer. Def get in more running.

But today was almost perfect.
I slept in.
I woke up and chatted online for awhile.
I picked up rosie and we hung out at marissa's house allll daaay.
Me, raf, tess, rosie, and marissa played rock band for like 6 hours.....
It was nice to just hang around and not have to worry about school work.
And rock band is super fun. I got to play drums.
And me, tess, and raf played the drums all at once at one point....haha
I had the yellow,green, and blue one, raf had the red one, and tess had the bass. loved it. haha
I'm glad marissa is home.
I'm glad i had a good day.
And by AMLOST perfect.....i meant only one thing was missing.
But it was still a good day.

.:bai:.

Fifteen

I was taking a shower and when i got out I fell.....


and I hurt my ankle. grrr I'm such a clutz... DX


I just dowloaded Forever by Chris Brown and now I have exactly 1500 songs.

The song is amazing.

I wonder how long I'll last before i get another song.

peace.

mathh

Sarge made a hand written entry once. I liked it. :) so here's mine.

Smelly

Warning: kinda of a feminly entree and mostly complaining....just a heads up.

So I had to go to the dovtor's to get tested for cervical cancer because i'm 18 en blah blah blah....I was already freaking out before hand because i HATE going to the doctor's and when i go there....they had all of this stuff that they were going to put in me! D: I was freaking out.... I don't want ANYONE shoving anything up in me until I get married. UGH! Especially a stranger!!!! DX Grosssssssssss!!!!!

But then....I was saved.....because she had to ask me questions beforehand and the first one was, "Are you having sex?"

I Am not sexually active so I said no and THEN she said that I DIDN"T HAVE TO DO THE EXAMINATION THING! THANK GOD! Thank you God. Thank you.

I don't have to do the stupid thing until I become sexually active or until I'm 21. Soooo 21 It is! yussss....

BUT the torture wasn't over........she made me take this REALLY painful vaccine for an STD that I DON"T HAVE. She said it would be better if i got it before I became active en blaaaahh. I was sooo angry D: and freaking out all over again because I haaaaate neeeeedles for life DX aaaaarrghhhhhh

And this one hurt even more than usual.....and THEN they took my pee. AND they took like 3 tubes of my blood from the same arm ahhhhhh hhhhhhh


I hate the doctors D: I really really hated the past hour. And now my arm is sore and I have to go study for math and go to a stupid gs meeting.....uggghhhh

AND the Doctor's smells funnyy ew ... a BAD funny. D:

My arm hurts. meh.

Sorry this was just mostly comlaining. -_-'
.:bye:.

The Search

So the other day I went to Target with Rosie and Catie to buy my mom a present. We kinda all split up in different directions though haha. Catie and I re-united in the cards section to look at one for my mom. At the end of the aisle there were like 20 smow globes on a shelf and Catie and I wound alllll of them so that the music was going all at the same time. It was HILARIOUS. haha...i took a video of it on my phonee.

Anyway. So, yes I m religious and yes I am in the choir and yes I really can't stand country except for a few exceptions...

Just because I am in the choir does NOT mean I like all of the music. I'm ok with most of it. There are a LOT of worship songs that i really cannot stand for some reason. That does NOT mean however that I don't love God. I just really don't like most of the stuff you find on T.V about worship CD's en stuff. I dunno why.

I DO NOT like country. I really really don't. I draw the line at Shania Twain. I lover her. But basically all other country is on my nono list.

So the weirdest thing happened...Catie and I split up again at Target. I was in the electronics section because there's always cool stuff there. I was looking at these earphones that they were advertising. I put them on and pressed the demo button and I heard this song.....and fell in love with it. It was weird because 1.) I CANNOT stand country D: and 2.) It was a religious song that wasn't from church...I like very few religious songs that we don't sing in church.

But this one was AMAZING. I had nooo idea who sang it or anything though because it was a demo D:
So I recorded it on my phone and my momm helped me figure out who sang it and stuff..... ty mom <3

"The Search" by Dolorean

Love it. Dunno why. Its very old folkie. haha
Another good random country sounding religious song is Alison Krauss's Version of "Down to The River to Pray"

I have heard many versions, but hers takes the cake. Dunno why.

the end
.:bai:.

Cuz For Life

Tom is my cousin. And I'm sick and tired of my parents telling me that I could technically marry him if i wanted to. NO MOM. NO DAD. He is my cousin. I don't care that we don't have the same blood. I have several and many reasons why I would never marry him or even think of him in that sense. GROSS!! He IS however one of my closest guy friends, considering we've grown up together. So.....CATIE, you too, need to stop bugging me about it. It's gross....YES I like talking to tom and I like hanging out with him. Ok? I could in fact give you a list of reasons why i would never think of tom that way, EVER. ugh. Catie, its like telling you that you could marry dominic since technically he isn't your brother because you are adopted too. Gross right? Same thing here.... anyway. I was over at grams house, and i was going to say hi to tom but my grams said he was sleeping because he was exhausted because he let someone hit him with a bat.....It was for some art thing, but i was truly scarred. He had a performance and wanted to get his point across i suppose but I couldn't handle it all that well. Seeing someone I care about be beaten up like that is scary. Very very scary...... Here is the convo I had with him about it.

magermuse: tom!
magermuse: whyyy
magermuse: did you let someone hit you
magermuse: with a bat
10:40 PM
thomashamiltom: lol
thomashamiltom: you watched it???
magermuse: O:
magermuse: there's a video?
thomashamiltom: did you read the note??
magermuse: i was over last night
thomashamiltom: OH SHIT!!!
thomashamiltom: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sAytoBLAVY
magermuse: and i was gonna say hi
thomashamiltom: lol
magermuse: but grams said you were sleepers
magermuse: and you let somone hit you
thomashamiltom: o yeah i was POOPED
magermuse: and you were an idiot she said
thomashamiltom: yeah i was exhausted
thomashamiltom: HAHA
thomashamiltom: she was sayin that tonight too when she watched the video
thomashamiltom: WATCH IT!!!!
magermuse: i am
thomashamiltom: its all real
magermuse: but omg...i'm scared
thomashamiltom: lol
thomashamiltom: its amazing to me
thomashamiltom: my mom is still watching it
thomashamiltom: for like the 6th time
magermuse: DX
magermuse: tom
magermuse: i'm like freaking out
magermuse: i think i'm gonna cry
thomashamiltom: hahaha!
thomashamiltom: dude!
thomashamiltom: i have welts
magermuse: ahhhh
magermuse: tomm
thomashamiltom: and i loved every second of it!!
magermuse: don do this again DX
magermuse: pleeeease
magermuse: meh
thomashamiltom: lol
thomashamiltom: next time you have to watch
thomashamiltom: but i dont plan on doing something twice so dont worry
magermuse: ok...
magermuse: how could someone agree
magermuse: to hit you
thomashamiltom: unless its BIGGER
magermuse: like that
thomashamiltom: lol
magermuse: WHAT
magermuse: bigger
magermuse: you're crazy!
thomashamiltom: it tok a LOONG time to convince him
thomashamiltom: and he went up to mom after the concert and apologized to her
thomashamiltom: lol
thomashamiltom: hes so nice
magermuse: D:


i really hope he doesn't do this again. ugh.

b.j.n. MISS YOU

Meh

I'm such a jerk D:

why can't i just do it. ldkfaklsjglwiekrghilier

Armm

I was talking to cailtlin for like an hour on the phone....and my arm is soore. Laaaaameeooo


xD

math bleh

Almost

So steph told me when the Twilight movie is going to come out and now everything i think about it, I'm SUPER excited but partially regretful. Why? here is why:

Veronica is as obsessed as I am with the Twilight series and was searching anything that had to do with the movie around november. She found a list of people they still needed to cast. One of them was Angela. They wanted a hispanic for the role. She doesnt do or say much at all. She is just one of the friends of Bella that sits at the same table and stuff. But anyway. On thanksgiving when Veronica came over, she told me I should send in pics for Angela's part. I didn't think too much about it because they would probably choose someone else etc. etc. Veronica kept telling me I should and told her SHE could do it if she really wanted the pics to go in. So veronica took a couple of pictures of me from my comuter and sent them in.

THEN a few weeks later, the agent or secretary or whatever for the casting director called me :O She told me that the casting director loved the pics. BUT before I could audition, i needed to give a 30$ fee. I didn't have the 30 dollars ... and i was not going to ask my parents. I hate asking them for money and it was for a movie. Long shot that they would choose me and i would sound really stupid haha. But anyways, they called again a few weeks later to see if I could sign up yet. I didn't have the money bleh.

Now I'm going to go see the Twilight moovie and see Angela and think, if I had had the 30 dollars, that could have been me because the casting director liked my pictures. Oh well! It was a long shot anyway. An Almost haha

Andrew, you took my snapple cap! grr.... And look at me when I"m talking to you! I feel like you're ignoring me....My art teacher looks behind us when she teaches and it bothers the crap outta me. You look at Catie when you're talking to her!! LOOK AT ME! ok... sorry i got kinda angry there >.> anyway.....

My mom just texted me the word 'yes'. I have no idea what she is talking about -_-'

I have to go do some math now....

.:byebye:.

Ahhh Flares

Two days. I need a distraction. meh.

Catie told me about this guy who tied flares to some balloons in texas and let them go up at night. Everyone was freaking out because they thought it was a UFO haha. Funneh.

Miss you

.:bai:.

Graceful Dog

I saw a cat the other day without a tail. It looked like a graceful dog. >.>
weird ha



.:bai:.

Anyway.

I am going to the party anyway -_-


God grant me mercy please and keep him away.....pease. meh. I was stuck either way i suppose.

Mango Tree

soo boored. gah

I drew this >.>

Mexican Fossil Bon Fire

I'm booored blah. I'm at my mom's school. It was either come with mom and be stuck or stay home and then go to Church boy's brothers party and I already have to deal with church boy at church and catie wouldn't go with me so i wouldn't be alone so i was stuck going with mom. blah Stuck here for who knows how long....and they block aim here grr. I'll be a fossil before she decides we should leave. meh. O: but then I can be oil for future generations that need oil for cars and such.


So last night i went to a mexican party for Esthela's nephew. I LOVE going to these things because physically i crave mexican food every now and then. Real mexican food, which i can get from Esthela and her family members. Plus most of Esthela's family is freaking hilarious. haha. Reasons i don't like to go are some....

1. Esthela always tries to pair me up with some of her other nephews. meh. She tried getting Catie and I to dance with a few of them. Of course I wanted to dance! But not with them! No offense... their pervos...I'd rather dance with Catie or someone like that.

2. They drink like craaazy. Haha its really funny sometimes but sometimes it gets kinda weird. Like last night a two year old was drinking a bottle of beer and no one cared...that was a little ridiculous. I would have snatched it away from him if his dad wasn't standing right next to him....his dad obviously didn't care. They gave some beer to Catie and I. You can't really refuse anything from a mexican because they take the answer yes as a yes AND the answer no as yes. They feed you and feed you and give you more and more and more.... so anyway. I drank a little to be polite because I told them i didn't want any but them gave me some anyway and I forgot how Hooooribble it tastes.. BLEH gross! I ate three chunks of lime to get rid of the taste...meh. Nasty nasty.

haha....I ate soo much x_x it was the only meal i had all day though because i knew they'd feed me more than i could handle. AND we got los of mexican candy O: woo!

Right now my sister and i are texting because she is supposed to be doing hw and not talking to me. Anyways. She wants to know what she needs to bring to have a bon fire and i told her she only needed two things. 1.A fire and 2. A bon.
baha I'm so helpful.....

peace out for now

.:bai:.

One

Its almost one -_-....


And I just woke up.

I'm such a bum! I can't do this again >.> What a waste of a day.

Real Dreams

So every now and then I have dreams where I think they were real. Its kind of annoying because I'll do stuff in reaction to dreams i had. Like once I had a dream where someone texted me but no one did but I responded to that person anyway. Embarassing..... I check my sent/inbox box every morning before I text in the morning now haha. Just to make sure.

So there's this guy that sits two rows in front of me in my Philosophy Class who has shoulder length hair kinda. He got it cut. Buzzed actually... BUT the next time I went to philosophy class it was all grown back! Conclusion: I dreamt that he had gotten this interesting haircut. I was so confused. I thought I was crazy. >.> I am but whatever.

peace out...for now

.:bai:.

Argh

A whole day..... D:


anxiety sucks! meh

sadface

Nom nom

omg

Esthela made us caldito con pollo with frijoles y arrozzzzz and it was AMAZING. I won't have to eat anything the rest of the night xD


There was a pamphlet thing on the outside of my window and I rolled my window down to take it off but it just went down with the window and didn't come back up :/ oops

Mr. Bolland had black hightops on today :O exactly like mine. He's awesoome.

And i noticed that drivers stare at me....STOP! I'm human. Get over it. Their prolly debating whether I'm asian or mexican....sigh... oh well. peace out

.:bai:.

Sexy Jesus

OMG.....So I'm on youtube watching Kevjumba because he is hilarious, and i saw an add and it said, "What Would Sexy Jesus Do?"


WTF?!?!?! nooooooo don't do that!!!! D:< so disrespectful ugh!

I found out it was for a stupid moovie called Hamlet 2. UGH! Imma hurt someone.......prefferably someone who was involved in making the movie possible. grrrr

The movie better be about praising Jesus or something. Not giving otu slogans like What would sexy jesus do.... nooooo pleasse noooo

We'll see....ergh